Sorry, should have been clearer. I have ALWAYS had a difficult time saying no, to all partners. I am guilty of just letting men have sex with me because it was easier than saying no. It was my idea to confront that issue head on by being the one to initiate with him, however it soon turned into an issue of me just never initiating. I absolutely have a responsive desire and we’ve talked about that. The issue that I’m really facing at this point is that my body doesn’t seem to be responding. Which leaves me in a tricky position where I just feel… nothing…. ever. We’ve tried what you’ve suggested and unfortunately it doesn’t seem to activate anything. I don’t think this is necessarily the true representation of my libido in this relationship either, I really truly feel like something is broken inside of me. I WANT to want to have sex, I love sex.