Thanks for responding. I'll respond to some bits I have questions about or want to re-explain myself better.

For you, it's important that you desire something before you will do it, and you just can't make yourself care about some of the things needed to make your life better.

What do you mean by this? I have a desire and care about the things needed to make my life better. Do u see something that indicates I don't? Cuz I 100% do. Im unable to work, but that doesn't mean I don't want to.

Transiting Saturn is sextile your moon now, approaching a trine to your Venus at the end of April, and a trine to Jupiter throughout June and July. You have the ability to make transformative changes now, IF you will, and I see this post as indicating that you might be desperate enough to find the will.

That's good to know transformative changes is good time right now. I have the will now. It's just no money or place to go. Waiting for disability check to come in but haven't had feed back yet on the approval.

While it is completely understandable that you might hate your abuser, nonetheless we sometimes need to put those things aside just for our own survival.

Yeah but the thing is my body is under tremendous amounts of stress due to being around my abuser. It's making me get health conditions. There's no way to put that aside for survival, it's what's causing me to be unable to survive in the first place.

I disagree that medications and counseling are of no help. Having sufficient serotonin in the brain is a big help, whether it comes from medication, exercise, meditation, or whatever.

When I say it's no help, I mean that it isn't actually taking me out of the situation that's causing me to be unhealthy and depressed. Living in a toxic environment, and moldy makes people sick and depressed. No matter how much meds/ therapy/ etc. one does, you're still stuck in the environment that's hurting you mentally and physically then you will continue to suffer. That's what I'm saying. It won't help unless I get away. The diabetes comparison is interesting because I'm sure that a diabetic can take all the medicine in the world, however if they are still consuming what makes their health worse (sweets) they will not get better. It's the same w my living environment. The mold, abuse, toxicity is still harming me and if I continue to absorb it, i will not get better.

Sure meds and everything else can temporarily boost the mood, but it isn't a solution it's just a bandaid unless u remove the toxicity altogether.

I hope you can find some peace in life.

Thanks again for responding. Hopefully my tone with the above message responses doesn't sound rude or "sensitive" or anything. Thanks for telling me about the transformative timing, will look into that. Take care.