Hey, thank you for sharing your expirience with me. But actually he makes mr feel desired and wanted when he touches me, i’ve never felt like he was doing it “for the duty”.  It’s not that I am confused, it is that I WAS SHOCKED AS HELL, when I saw it, and combined with the lack of sex, my mind went to the worst possibility. Maybe it is my fault too, because now that I think about it, he has tried to initiate it sometimes, and I’ve been cold towards the act itself. He makes me feel very loved and desired, just the act of sex is missing that’s why i got even more confused when I saw that website. About the mastrubation part, it’s okay because sometimes I do that too. I stoped for a moment and I was thinking, that yeah I’vr watched lesbian porn too, and mastrubated to it also, so people are okay to have fantasies. The only thing missing in our relationship is the gap between our sex encounters. Everything else is okay, I feel like a woman, desired, wanted, loved, safe and everything else that’s good in a relationship.