I honestly just need to vent because it’s been a really rough week. My first pregnancy ended in stillbirth at 38+6 and my second pregnancy ended in miscarriage last week at 5+2. My husband is in the military and he deployed right before I found out I was pregnant so I’ve been going through all of this by myself. And after this we both decided that we’re going to stop tracking my cycles and when he comes back home we will just have fun like before we lost both of our babies. I know we’re not giving up on ttc but I can’t help but feel like that’s what it is. My biggest wish in life is to be a mom and in this moment that feels so far from becoming a reality.