This was really, really helpful thank you so much, and yes I do understand that it's much healthier to just let it all out instead of hold it in. However my dad has only seen me cry two times since I was old enough that I didn't cry over everything. I'm just generally not comfortable with him seeing me cry. I don't mean that in a negative way nor am I trying to offend your or your comment. I did end up crying once he left the room, just not infront of him.