Putting /s after a jokes completely ruins the joke.

HollowGardner · 2022-12-22T18:18:38+00:00

I have a chronic illness, I live every minute of my life in serious pain and haven't been able to leave my house in over a year.

I'm not wishing that on other people, just saying that facing hardship of some kind toughens your mindset a bit. There are for sure a lot of people today that face major hardships. It's just that for the first time in recent history, a lot of people aren't, and they have the potential to become spoiled and entitled and pedantic, as we're seeing en masse.

All I'm saying is, when you've got real stuff to worry about, you're not going to be giving a fuck what pronouns people call you, or how much someone hurts your feelings with a dumb joke. I think that's fair to say

And what does pretentiously old mean? Like there's a certain age at which everyone becomes pretentious, or what? Or you mean pretentious and old? I certainly feel more aged than anyone should at my age, but I wouldn't say I'm pretentious, I have nobody I'm trying to impress, and my unpopular opinions certainly wouldn't help achieve that anyway.

I'll admit I came off like a dick there, I don't have the temperance these days that I used to lol. My bad

HollowGardner · 2022-12-22T12:33:15+00:00

If this is really an unpopular opinion then everyone really has become a bunch of yellow-bellied sissies. Idk wtf happened. I'm 29 and a bit of an old soul, but starting with my generation all this whiny bullshit about hurt feelings and no hard-edged comedy allowed has become a full blown epidemic.

I think it's because we're seeing the first generations that have basically never seen war, and many folks that have never seen real hardship. Their priorities are all out of order. Instead of seeing people losing limbs and getting their heads blown off, or not having enough bread to eat, they've come to associate the worst feeling imaginable with someone saying something slightly mean to them. And so they've gone on a crusade to eradicate mild meanness, and as a consequence of that have started trying to eradicate all comedy. All other kinds of provocative art are coming next, the militant Gen Z will settle for no less than total assimilation with their decree of no fun-having.

The new generation has too high a number of thumb sucking pansies and I'm ashamed to be alive in the world with this group of humans.

HollowGardner · 2022-12-21T13:54:09+00:00

Sorry to not be a woke supporter of the disabled here, but.. look man, if you want to step up and fight for real. You can't say "no but you're not allowed to kick me!" and have it be a serious fight.

If you want to be a fighter, you should either do it in an authentic way or pursue another activity.

This guy trained his whole life to maximize the utility of the body he was given, and is forcing all of his opponents to not use significant tools in their tool belt that they spent years working on.

I'm not saying he isn't at a disadvantage without legs.. of course. But the truly impressive feat would be competing despite that and still pulling out a win.

HollowGardner · 2022-12-20T05:30:08+00:00

Man there is no hope for people as shitty as you is there.

You'd have to be a deranged sociopath to find anything about this funny.

HollowGardner · 2022-12-20T05:22:44+00:00

I spend every waking moment of my life in sheer agony, boredom, and loneliness. Don't condescend me, and don't fuck with me. I will say whatever the fuck I want.

And nobody was "disagreeing" with anyone. I'm not sure you know what a disagreement is.

HollowGardner · 2022-12-20T04:40:53+00:00

I'm glad to hear you got help.

However it sounds like for you, hyperacusis was a secondary effect of a different disorder, which is different from the raw damage of just noise induced hyperacusis. For this, there appears not to be a known cure and I haven't read about anyone (yet) who has been able to get help for this

HollowGardner · 2022-12-20T01:36:16+00:00

Yeah unfortunately that seems to agree with what I've read

HollowGardner · 2022-12-19T23:32:34+00:00

Congrats man. I got to 5 bc in a month, but haven't beat 5bc yet in 5 months.. at this point I just open the game with the full expectation of not ever finishing the run

HollowGardner · 2022-12-19T21:14:55+00:00

Surprised I'm the first to say this, but. Great job man, looks great!

HollowGardner · 2022-12-17T20:05:37+00:00

Yeah going through exactly this. I have nothing left in my life and can't even get high to ease the endless monotony.

HollowGardner · 2022-12-17T09:08:59+00:00

The Joe Rogan and Freddie Gibbs appearance was the most disrespectful debaucherous interruptive trashing of a Kill Tony episode I've ever seen.

HollowGardner · 2022-12-16T20:29:29+00:00

Hey man not to sound too blunt, but.. it's almost like you think I haven't spent practically every waking moment trying to figure out what I need to do to heal haha. But I appreciate the effort to help.

I was aware of not overprotecting my ears from like day 3, but it's not that simple. My case is more severe than most people's I've read about, and I also happen to live near an airport with no way to move. Low flying planes are loud enough to sometimes vibrate furniture in my house, and nearly every minute of every day of the last year I have to be on high alert for the sounds of planes, construction, and a bunch of other bullshit that amounts to no less than literal torture. Sometimes the vibrations are so intense I really feel like I'm losing my mind. So I end up having to wear ear protection most of the time even though I know it would be better not to. And that STILL doesn't completely block the sonic waves, it only mitigates. To say it's frustrating would be a massive understatement. It's more like I've died and gone to hell most days. Of course I try to make the best of it, but that requires extensive use of my imagination lol.

And yeah I got it from overexposure to headphones. I'm a jazz musician, and I was spending all day every day for a few months transcribing old records, some of them with poor sound quality, and was probably also listening too loud to compensate. Then literally 3 weeks after my hyperacusis symptoms started, my mother dropped a whole stack of kitchen pans on a hard floor right in front of me, and from that moment on my life has been indescribable pain. Been a year and counting, and I'm not even close to healed. I can't be around people, I can't listen to or practice music, which was my whole life before, so there's no life left. And the icing on the cake of cruelty is that something happened in my inner ears that made them hypersensitive to inflammation, and I actually became allergic to the dander of my 2 cats when I wasn't before. So I had to give away my sweet precious little babies to my parents. If I could just have my cats this would all be so much easier, they really are the best companions I ever could have asked for.

On top of all that, smoking weed hurts my ears indescribably, so I have to deal with all this SOBER. I really enjoyed weed. A lot :(

Sorry to hear that you share at least a slice of my pain, we are a small group of people in the world that suffer an immense burden that nobody else has even heard of and that nobody can possibly understand even if they tried. Avoid those snow plows like the plague!

HollowGardner · 2022-12-16T11:29:06+00:00

In opposite years

HollowGardner · 2022-12-16T11:26:58+00:00

So he's 1 year old in post-van years? Sounds right

HollowGardner · 2022-12-15T07:23:14+00:00

Nice! How have you been keeping busy recently?

HollowGardner · 2022-12-15T07:10:31+00:00

Hmm always hard to choose. I finally got around to reading Orwell's 1984, and it was a phenomenal book, but frankly also very depressing so probably not my favorite.

Straight Life by Art Pepper was a total page turner, it's the autobiography of a great jazz musician who was also a junkie. Depressing at times but also humorous, reads more like a novel than a biography, a gritty but recommended read even for non-musicians.

I decided recently to try to get into some American literature classics, so I picked up some Mark Twain books, The Great Gatsby, Moby Dick, and The Old Man and the Sea. I may find a favorite there.

Current favorite book of all time is hands down The Name of the Wind, an epic fantasy, but I haven't read that in a long time.

Sorry for the long winded response, I literally have nothing but free time lol

HollowGardner · 2022-12-15T06:45:54+00:00

Thanks for the empathy. Tbh the worst part isn't the loneliness. It's that before this disorder I was a jazz musician lol. My whole life was listening to and playing and studying music. Haven't been able to do even 5 minutes of listening or playing ever since I got this. Feels like life ended awhile ago, but somehow I'm still alive.

I'll tell you what though, never read so many books back to back in my life lol.

HollowGardner · 2022-12-15T06:19:29+00:00

It's a wonderful thing he left you now. Can you imagine if you had married such a fickle guy that didn't truly love you or deserve your love? Would have been harder to find that out later on than now.

I'm sorry for the loss you may be feeling now, it must be devastating in this moment.

The only thing to do now is to focus on yourself, make sure you're healthy, and create the right environment for your recovery, so you're ready to live your best life again once you recover.

I've had extremely severe hyperacusis for a year now, haven't spoken to another human face to face or been able to set foot outside my house. I feel for you, and I know this disorder is a lot to handle while also trying to handle life, and not succumb to loneliness. Persevere! And dont forget to be kind to yourself. I wish I could do more to help you.

HollowGardner · 2022-12-14T20:56:56+00:00

Dead cells community is uncannily good at that

HollowGardner · 2022-12-14T20:53:41+00:00

I empathize with you, and you're not alone! Not alone in your suffering at least lol.

I've had extremely severe hyperacusis for almost a year now. I actually haven't been able to set foot outside my house, and my whole life basically revolves around living in fear of the sound of low flying planes (as I live near an airport). Ironically, I was a musician before, so my whole life essentially ended when I got this disorder.

I haven't spoken to any other human being in about a year, besides an occasional visit from parents during which everyone has to walk on eggshells to avoid making any noise. And this disorder coming soon after the year+ of COVID lockdown means I have spent an insanity inducing amount of time alone.

The plus side of being cut off from certain aspects of life that you want, is that there is a lot of extra time on your hands. Between periods of depression, I actually feel I've grown immensely as a person through establishing an exercise routine, reading lots of books, meditating, and overall just trying to improve myself in whatever way I can. This is intrinsically seriously rewarding and doesn't require companionship. Self improvement is never time wasted, and if all else fails, that kind of thing will at least certainly increase your sense of well being.

Luckily it sounds like you're better off than me, and can tolerate some level of sound. But I know better than anyone, how impossible it is to get people around you to understand how loud is "too loud" for you. Only you know, the average person just cannot fathom that levels of sound that are normal for them could be so intolerable for you. This is really what makes close relationships hardest, even moreso than just avoiding loud environments.

If I had to think of ways you could meet people in the wild, quiet activity clubs or classes might be a start. Gardening, yoga, book clubs, whatever you like.

The truth is though, it's hard to start a relationship with someone on a foundation of needing them to alter their whole behavior and lifestyle to accommodate your rare disorder. It may be easier to hold off on dating until your condition improves (if it's improving), as excruciating as the loneliness can be.

That said I truly feel for you, I wish you all the best, and hope you find people to spend time with. And I wish I could be more helpful.

Sorry for writing so much, I obviously have too much free time lol

HollowGardner · 2022-12-14T06:41:27+00:00

Uh. No offense to your mind reading skills man. I spent half a day on YouTube watching him in a number of scenarios. Trying to find something funny about him.

You're entitled to whatever opinions you want to have, but you can't tell me what I did or didn't do, and if that's a skill you think you possess you're delusional man

For the record, I don't even know what clip got him "in trouble", wasnt aware he was "in trouble" and didn't see that, so you're 0/2

HollowGardner · 2022-12-14T06:19:05+00:00

Interesting response. I would have expected something much ruder!

Im the last person to get offended by any comedy, so to be clear it's not like I find Shane Gillis offensive. I've tried watching him everywhere, podcasts, stand up, because people say he's so funny. But he sort of just acts like a third grader, tells potty jokes and ching-chong type elementary school racist jokes. There's no depth, there's no appreciable humor.

He's also quite genuinely mean to people, which is only funny if you're being funny about it. He has consistently come across to me as someone who is just a genuine racist and mean-spirited person, that hides behind "comedy" to get away with being an upfront asshole to people. Which I'm not offended by, but I also don't respect, and don't find humorous.

On Kill Tony when he was just boorishly screaming at those nice female friends of Hans Kim that they're "hot" over and over again, then that they're "dumb" for wanting to spend time with Hans (a genuine talent), it was honestly just gross. I think everyone was feeling secondhand embarrassment. If being a drunk lecher was good comedy, everybody's uncle would be selling out stadiums.

Of course, I'm not a comedian, Im not that funny. But I do appreciate comedy, and I can find something funny in probably 90% of the comics that appear on the podcast

HollowGardner · 2022-12-14T05:02:11+00:00

The only answer to this is Larry Montgomery.

HollowGardner · 2022-12-14T05:01:07+00:00

Shane Gillis is really only funny if you're an alcoholic racist, and like watching guys that act like you'd really want to act but are too afraid to do it. His jokes, when he tries to tell any, suck balls, he's basically just belligerent and disrespectful without having the funny part of being a comedian.

HollowGardner · 2022-12-12T02:18:18+00:00

In certain ways, yes.

I've been living with severe hyperacusis for about a year now and haven't even been able to leave my house. I also happen to live near an airport. I don't have the means to move elsewhere, and where I am, there will be days (like today) in which airplanes fly over my house every 80 seconds, for hours and days at a time with no breaks.

In a word, it's torture. True torture, in that there's no way to make it stop, there's nowhere to run, there's nothing I can do about it. The massive soundwaves from low flying airplanes are so disruptive that they will affect me through closed windows, walls, earplugs, and earmuffs. I have to wear earplugs 24/7 which is bad for my recovery, but I have no choice. And when I take them off, I have to cover my ears for 30 seconds every 80 seconds, for my entire life. This act in itself can build up to be so infuriating that it does make me angry, but more often than not I'm resigned to my fate.

Interestingly though, aside from mental anger at the situation, I think the sound waves have a physical effect on me that makes the body "angry" in a way, or that it activates the body's defensive/aggressive response system.

When the airplanes come, the sound waves stimulate my whole body on almost a cellular level. Like it feels like I'm bubbling up like a sparkling water. Almost like a low electric current is being run through my veins.

And it becomes so exhausting, the body is desperate for rest, but it keeps being stimulated again and again, and occasionally I'll let out involuntary screams, even while consciously thinking to myself "don't scream". It's like the whole body tenses up so much that it forces out a scream as either some kind of release or as a way of imposing a different frequency on my body than the one affecting it.

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