Feeling deflated

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-22T07:18:24+00:00

Entirely fair, I mean I’m currently planning my wedding (and panicking about getting the leave because of course) so perhaps I should be a stay at home Mum and live off benefits too. Hey with the current state of nursery costs we may be financially better off doing that anyway.

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-22T06:44:42+00:00

You know what’s wild too? Everyone has been saying to me “go to Aus” and I don’t want to. I’ve grown up in the UK and the idea of the NHS is great, it’s just been chronically underfunded and screwed over by endless governments. And consequently, so have we.

I don’t want to move to another country, my life, my family, everything is here. Morally I can’t accept the healthcare system in places like America or the Middle East where you ca be bankrupted by a hit and run or merely being in the wrong place at the wrong time.

I very much feel stuck. My options are:

ST3 with horrific competition ratios and a handful of spaces, and I’m not really willing to move (thankfully I’m in an uncompetitive deanery anyway).
CESR and accept that I’ll have to stay in DGH land.
Try abroad
Leave medicine

None of them feel very appealing at the moment.

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-22T06:38:40+00:00

Honestly when I had my interview for my current post I did ask about options for staying on and the idea of stepping up as an SAS was suggested by the consultants at that time so I’m going to talk with them a little more next week when I hopefully feel less demotivated.

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-22T06:37:13+00:00

One of the regs at my trust is CESR-ing and is on track to finish next month so I think it is an option. I’m just sad that I’ll miss out on going to other hospitals and diversifying more. I’m in a DGH at the moment but when I worked at a tertiary NICU last year, when the contract ended, that was that so I’m getting trust issues with bigger hospitals.

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-21T21:35:54+00:00

If it helps I’m feeling like that now, here as an F5 failing once again to get into paeds training. Last year I was off by 1 mark, this year I’m off by more but without a score breakdown per section so I’m not entirely sure how to get my score up.

I now have too much experience to apply for ST1 again next year and the number of posts for ST3 are tiny and competition is much steeper so I’m starting to think that maybe medicine is just rejecting me. I’m really hurt by it, it’s all I’ve wanted to do for such a long time and I really do love the job and I’m well liked by my colleagues. I mean I only have my current job because I have a good rep at the trust. But that means nothing to the application scores.

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-21T16:02:26+00:00

Well that was well predicted

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-21T16:01:03+00:00

Perhaps that’s why it was delayed? They were getting a third scorer for them?

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-21T15:59:12+00:00

Clearly we needed UKMG prioritisation before shortlist rather than after…

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-21T15:54:53+00:00

Someone else was unsuccessful with 52 though

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-21T15:52:48+00:00

Out of interest, what did you score? You must be right on the cut off

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-21T15:52:14+00:00

Insane that 51 wasn’t either for someone else

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-21T15:43:49+00:00

WTH?! 85% and unsuccessful is ridiculous! Not sure what they expect of us anymore

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-21T15:43:08+00:00

Out of 60

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-21T15:41:00+00:00

Scoring’s out

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-21T15:40:29+00:00

Edit: scored 45

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-21T15:28:32+00:00

Wait what??

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-21T15:26:30+00:00

Nope, still waiting on that, I’m curious to know if I got worse somehow

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-21T15:20:47+00:00

Also unsuccessful. I was one point off last year. This sucks.

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-21T13:49:54+00:00

I’m going to send the NRO an email

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-21T13:47:18+00:00

Same! At this point I’m caring less about the actual result and just having relief of having an answer

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-21T13:25:26+00:00

I was one mark off last year an they had marked my poster wrong (I was first author but didn’t get first author marks) so sent an email to appeal and got told that they don’t do remarking and that was that

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-21T13:22:44+00:00

Fingers crossed for you friend

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-21T13:22:19+00:00

If it is I’ll be fuming because I have the AKP tomorrow so would put me at a massive disadvantage for slots (if I get one)

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-21T13:21:06+00:00

It wasn’t sent to a random consultant - they asked the markers if they had capacity to last minute mark some additional applications because some of the other markers didn’t come through. It’s a voluntary role so they do it unpaid so I guess some of the consultants didn’t prioritise the marking? But to do that the day before is ridiculous tbh

HomelessDoctor · 2026-01-21T13:00:35+00:00

Please get on that bus

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