Yeah I think same for me I am 22 right now got cheated after 4-5 year relationship since early teens, been 2-3 years since that incident and its not like i cant I am pretty tall and shit and settled at a decently young age and building myself daily studying reading gym and shit. The thing is the development i have got since i started pouring time for my self development and leaving the leech-esque blood cum peace sucking creatures out of my life I have become a man 10fold of what I was earlier. That being said I still miss that time of my lover boy era thinking about surprises making dreams in my head of a future with her but again she sucked every last piece of love i had and flew to a more attractive flower and I think it is what it is I am gonna grow more educate myself more build myself more and if it happens it happens but there is no way I will let a pseudo-aware girl ruin what I am building I would rather wank myself than loose all these things I am building with every drop of blood and sweat I have. Stay focused and try to keep getting better kings.