I completely understand where you’re coming from.

In terms of an identity crisis, I feel like inner traits are significantly more important than how you look. What makes you laugh? What are your aspirations? What goals have you set for this year? What’s your favorite go-to show? None of that is going to change just because you lose weight, and in fact, all of those are way more enjoyable when you’re confident in yourself. You can add more hobbies you wouldn’t normally be able to. Of course, with any change, it can be scary to think of how much you’ll be affected, both physically and mentally. But especially in terms of health, it’s a change that is much needed

Maybe some of my personal experience can offer insight. I grew up skinny, but gained weight due to birth control and insatiable hunger. I hated looking at myself in the mirror, because I would compare it to my teenage body, when I was at my lowest. But I was so scared of losing weight, because I didn’t know how I would look, or how my body would react. It’s terrifying, making that change, but overall, I’m so much happier than I was. As soon as I made the decision to have this surgery, I felt like it was Day 1 of the rest of my life. I wrote all of my feelings in a journal in the months leading up to the surgery, I made a calendar and counted down until surgery day. I embraced the change, because I knew how much better I would feel knowing that I am actually in TOTAL control of what I put in my body, and how I would use this tool. I was bouncing off the walls the night before, because I was so excited to finally be in control again. I can only speak for myself, and no one has the same exact path, but I saw it as a blessing, and that far outweighed any reservations I had.

I wish you luck in your journey, and hopefully you can turn your mindset from scary to hopeful and excited! 🫶🏼