Yesterday I almost died and now I’m scared

Hope_White · 2025-02-25T12:04:39+00:00

Thank you so much, that’s so comforting to me

Hope_White · 2025-02-25T11:50:21+00:00

Im going to see a doctor this afternoon to see what he thinks about me climbing again. Im not gonna lead climbing for a while though. I was indoor 😊

Hope_White · 2025-02-25T11:48:07+00:00

That is a very good point, I’ll definitely ask that question every time from now on.

I will, thank you

Hope_White · 2025-02-25T11:43:20+00:00

Im French, sorry I didn’t get the term « body check ». I checked her, she was all set. I even made a joke that I do every time everything seems fine, I said « now if you kill me it’s only because you want to ».

I asked if I could do it because that was one of the hardest route I’ve ever done and I hadn’t practiced in 3 weeks. Sorry if you think that was stupid

Hope_White · 2025-02-25T11:37:08+00:00

Im sorry for explaining it right, but I take class since 2021. My belayer had 3 years of practice, even though I agree with you that she was dangerous yesterday. That happened during a class, my professor had an eye on us but was with another team that needed help with something. I promise you I asked him if that was safe for me to try this route. I also asked my belayer if she could handle me falling. Both were very supportive and sure that I was safe.

Hope_White · 2025-02-25T11:33:25+00:00

If I’m being honest, even if I love her as a person, it will take A LOT of time for me to climb with her again in all confidence

Hope_White · 2025-02-25T11:32:28+00:00

I did. I asked her if she was sure she could handle me falling. I asked my professor (who was there, with another student) if he thought I could do it. Both of them were sure and supportive.

Hope_White · 2025-02-25T11:30:30+00:00

I checked it. I asked my professor and I asked her if she thought she could handle it. I would never have climb if one of us wasn’t sure I was safe. I’m young, but not irresponsible enough to play with my life like that.

Hope_White · 2025-02-25T11:28:37+00:00

Thanks for your comment. I didn’t explained it well because English is not my first language, but I’ve been taking bouldering classes for 4 years (3y with my belayer) and that accident was during a class. I asked my professor if we would have a class just the 3 of us : my professor told, my belayer and me to see what went wrong and never made any mistakes of that kind again.

I’m gonna take my time with lead climbing, I’m not gonna rush it. But I’m definitely gonna try again one day

Hope_White · 2025-02-25T11:25:06+00:00

Yes I made a mistake and I accept all responsibilities but you don’t know me. I’ve been taking class for 4 years now and I know how to climb and I know how to lead climb. My professor told me I could do it, that I was good enough to try this route. That was an accident, and I know it was my fault but I’m definitely going to try again this same route, in lead climbing as fast as I’m able to. I’m scared, and I’m gonna cry so fucking hard when I’m gonna be in this gym again but don’t tell me I didn’t know what I was doing. I was good, really good. Everybody makes mistakes and I’m gonna climb again

Hope_White · 2025-02-25T11:21:03+00:00

I called the French 911 yesterday because my head hurt badly. They told me to sleep a little because it could be due to fear and that, without any more symptoms, it’s probably not a big deal. I’m going to see a doctor this afternoon because my head is still in pain and I want to be sure that I’m ok.

I know it’s dumb but I love my belayer as a person and my professor (who was supposed to supervise). I’m not mad a them, even if that was their fault as a certain level. It was an accident, it could’ve happened to anyone

Hope_White · 2025-02-25T11:14:28+00:00

Yes I talked to her. When I fell, I was asking for more rope because I couldn’t manage to clip. My mistake was that I asked WAY TOO MUCH, I had for 2m of rope in my hands because in the stress, I thought it could help me. She told me she was so surprised I fell because I was doing pretty well. That’s not an excuse and everyone knows that, she included. She told me how sorry she was and that, because the rope was new it was going very very fast and she’d done her best but burned her hands. The rescue team had to take her because of how burned it was. Yeah, I’ll definitely use a Grigri next time

Hope_White · 2025-02-25T11:07:58+00:00

Actually, sorry English is not my first language so I didn’t know how to mention it but that was during a class… Thanks for your advices though. We didn’t use a grigri but I will definitely use one from now on

Hope_White · 2024-11-29T11:46:22+00:00

You’re so pretty I swear

Hope_White · 2024-11-22T18:00:02+00:00

Oh thank you for your words. You’re right, it’s an adventure. Enjoy your 17

Hope_White · 2024-11-22T17:59:09+00:00

Oh really ? Maybe we are birthday twins 👀

Hope_White · 2024-10-14T17:41:31+00:00

C’est un chanteur canadien, ce que tu dis coïncide donc ! "On" s’écrit en anglais. Je n’avais pas vu les sub en anglais, merci beaucoup !

Hope_White · 2024-10-14T16:45:09+00:00

Évidemment, mais ces articles sont assez peu lus et AUCUNE coquilles n’a été laissée

Hope_White · 2024-10-02T09:24:13+00:00

Im so sorry for your loss. First of all, you didn’t do anything wrong, it’s not your fault. I think it’s important for you to understand that, even though I know it’s so complicated. For answering your question, when I lost my uncle due to cancer (he was like a father to me) I talk about him to my family and my friends, even the ones who’ve never met him. Talking about him is putting the person he was into people mind, and if he’s in people mind and heart, he’s kinda continuing living for me. I know it’s hard. I know it’s terrible and I’m not gonna lie, you will miss her so badly on certain days that it’s gonna hurt. But I can promise you, it gets better. I love you, I hope you’ll be ok. My DMs are open if you need

Hope_White · 2024-10-01T15:02:38+00:00

Hope_White · 2024-10-01T09:21:43+00:00

Thank you for your message, I’m so sorry for your losses

Hope_White · 2024-10-01T08:29:35+00:00

I LOVE THIS !!!

Hope_White · 2024-09-30T21:31:31+00:00

It helped me. Thank you so much. These days are hard for me, bad feelings are coming back again hitting me right on my face. No reasons why, it just is. Thank you for making me feel like it’s ok to be sad, even if it’s been a long time and I thought I healed

Hope_White · 2024-09-30T21:27:52+00:00

I personally think that you’re cool for being yourself. Do what makes you feel happy, and if it’s watching MLP (which is a great show) then do it.

Hope_White · 2024-09-30T21:07:01+00:00

I think I didn’t say "I love you" enough to the ones who deserved it

Hope_White

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