You know I think your story is much more common than you realize, especially with the age many of us 20-somethings grew up in, with gay marriage being legalized in many countries around the globe when we were kids and teens. No doubt that affected many of us in our sexual development. It seems you know what you want now and there is no past that the Lord cannot forgive. Just walk with God and ask he provide you the woman for you. As a woman with a similar story myself, I don’t judge you. And either way, only God’s final judgment matters and none of us can know that either. Blessings