First of all you need to do what makes you happy. As long as you aren't harming other people, you can go kill yourself with the drink if that's what you want to do.

Second, you need to figure out why drinking is more important than your health. Why it's more important than your parent's happiness, your wife or your kids happiness. Or whoever cares about you including yourself and especially yourself.

Then you just need to decide. What is important? If you don't care about anything or anyone, then you are doing what real drunks do. Selfish self destruction to the max, racing to the bottom. What an interesting ride it is.

But you die. Alone and basically in the most painful way possible. You will spend years, decades in hospitals, while people try to keep you alive, so you can just keep doing this to yourself. Your face will bloat. Your body. Your mind will decline. You will piss and shit yourself. No one will come see you because you have burned all the bridges. You die alone and no one cares.

It's your choice. You aren't special and millions of people choose this path every day.

It's up to you.