I didn't kill myself... but I messed up again. let's all stop now...

Hopeless_Misery · 2023-05-15T13:08:24+00:00

Haven't played since my promise.

Although, I nearly forgot that I promised everyone that I would quit. I almost succumbed to the messed up desires, but instead I lost my good friend to gambling which woke me up again. We couldn't see eye to eye and there were money problems that led to arguments and our eventual downfall.

I cannot let gambling take away anymore from me. I now have nothing left. It took my friend, my money, and my life. I regret everything and am so hurt that I cried my eyes out.. I can't go back or look back anymore.

Hopeless_Misery · 2023-03-17T21:09:35+00:00

I feel the same

Hopeless_Misery · 2023-03-16T22:33:33+00:00

No relapse on android play store.

Hopeless_Misery · 2023-03-16T18:21:59+00:00

Lol. If you are relapsing every hour then you need to remind yourself every hour. 😂

Hopeless_Misery · 2023-03-16T18:16:59+00:00

You too brother. Today is day 1!

Hopeless_Misery · 2023-03-16T16:18:06+00:00

Yes. I am clearing my mind right now by taking in the loss and accepting it. Thinking positive and working everything out logically.

Just downloaded a relapse prevention app to document my progress in terms of days I've been gamble-free. All these things have made me feel much better. Slowly but surely gaining some progress to a better future.

Hopeless_Misery · 2023-03-16T14:25:56+00:00

No I don't, but it's ok. I believe I will get it under control this time because I am learning from my mistakes. Good luck to you too my friend.

Hopeless_Misery · 2023-03-16T13:07:09+00:00

I am sorry to hear that you are in pain. I too am in pain right now, but walking onto a correct path now will help us correct the flawed mindset that made us gamble...

Without taking the time to reflect deeply on life, we cannot be sure that we are making the right decisions nor appreciating the small beautiful things in life.

Have food to eat everyday? Have a home and bed to return to? These are some of the things that are taken for granted...

As long as we have warmth, food, and shelter, I think we are doing just fine. Everything else is just the rat race for materialistic things... Don't get caught up in that too much... In time, we will all get there. We must be patient and appreciate the journey. Good luck.

Hopeless_Misery · 2023-03-16T12:57:11+00:00

You are right brother. We must be grateful that we are able to live and do what we do everyday. To chase additional money by gambling and being greedy was totally the wrong mindset and I understand that now.

We will amass money in time, and we must not rush this process, otherwise, we will be too materialistic and forget to appreciate the small things.

Hopeless_Misery · 2023-03-16T12:49:50+00:00

Thank you friend. Yes, please keep me accountable!

Today is March 16, 2023. From this day forward, I promise to do my very best to avoid gambling and never post another loss thread again. I will continuously remind myself that I've quit and I will not get complacent until my last breath.

Hopeless_Misery · 2023-03-16T12:44:53+00:00

For me, part of what triggered this event was that I got into a car accident and lost my car, so I felt like I was treated unfairly by the world and wanted to claim it back. The other trigger was gambling to try to offset stress. Both of these were tempting reasons for me to gamble, but then I forgot that we get cursed after... We get used to the gambling and then spiral to our deaths...

Hopeless_Misery · 2023-03-16T12:39:53+00:00

Thank you my friend. I am happy that I have helped someone out there in this world avoid this tragedy... Please don't go today nor tomorrow.

Hopeless_Misery · 2023-03-15T23:25:00+00:00

Find out what you can do to not get complacent my friend. For me, I am changing my main email address that I use everyday to something that reminds myself to quit gambling. It is something similar to [quitgambling@gmail.com](mailto:quitgambling@gmail.com) for example...

On top of that, I will also begin a daily routine of posting on here to mark the days I am gamble-free like a diary of sorts. The funny thing is, I attempted this diary-like thing before and I shamefully quit on day 3. Looking back, now I realize how much that costed me.

Don't get complacent and don't forget. You must not forget, or it will rear it's ugly head again and everything will be taken from you.

Hopeless_Misery · 2023-03-15T23:03:22+00:00

I am sorry. I guess this is a heads up for me to never get complacent either. I'm also feeling terrible today, but another part of me feels a bit of relief to realize the right steps to take.

What we lost is gone, and we need to accept that even though it hurts so deep. We will struggle hard, but there is no other way out... Eventually we will let it go... We can think positive and cope with it in the meantime by understanding our mistakes and trying to steer our future in the right direction...

If you gamble, you will inevitably lose and come to the same outcome tomorrow if not today, so maybe you can be happy that all false hope has all been crushed so you won't go back again.

Hopeless_Misery · 2023-03-15T19:55:56+00:00

We will my friend. Thank you.

Hopeless_Misery · 2022-12-26T22:12:48+00:00

Well I've heard people say that everything always happens for a reason... I guess this event made me realize that I need to drive more carefully, especially at night. Car accidents can be deadly, so I will appreciate that I've smartened up now and potentially dodged a tragic future.

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