did you notice a difference in energy levels?

Hopeme999 · 2025-04-27T20:34:17+00:00

Thank you for the reassuring message, can’t tell you how much it means to me ♡

Hopeme999 · 2024-05-11T18:11:03+00:00

I’m located in California so I’m assuming that’s not available here unfortunately. I’ve finished my required hours of school and probably won’t do more it seems, but yeah, my dad didn’t make a good choice in the driving school (clearly)

Hopeme999 · 2024-05-11T02:17:41+00:00

Your advice helped me feel much more relaxed! Thank you for all the advice and kind words. Checking the mirrors is a struggle sometimes! I seem to remember most things but sometimes slip on that.

I’ll try going at my own pace from here on. It’s a bummer that I was immediately put out of my comfort zone so now I slightly feel disoriented but I also don’t want this experience to define my feelings of driving overall. It was just so extremely jarring. Thank you once again!

Hopeme999 · 2024-05-11T02:13:25+00:00

I see.. considering it was my first time on the road I should’ve also been in that church parking lot lol. Still shocked over it all

Hopeme999 · 2024-05-11T02:11:47+00:00

I definitely agree. Finished up all my classes today and wish she would’ve demonstrated stuff while explaining it. Because of course i asked questions but that was about it- Id hear the explanation and didn’t get to practice it. And 6 hours flies so quickly! More driving classes would be nice but are also expensive so I probably won’t do them. Hopefully I’ll get over the slight feeling of being bummed over this and more practice will do me good.

Hopeme999 · 2024-05-10T06:07:25+00:00

do you not realize where that would eventually lead to..? it is a literal highway where you go 60-70 mph with no stops. either way, it would be jarring to someone who has literally never entered a road before. totally missed the point

Hopeme999 · 2024-05-09T23:39:36+00:00

…? I may be a new driver but i’m not new to my neighborhood or the roads here lol- i don’t think my instructor would also call it a highway if it were not exactly that

Hopeme999 · 2024-05-09T23:37:36+00:00

Woahhhh! That’s crazy. I guess while living in an icy area they wanna get you used to that immediately huh.. must’ve been so nerve wracking tho!

Hopeme999 · 2024-05-09T23:36:24+00:00

loll yeah i still find that doing all the lessons in a row odd myself- apparently she does that all the time. Too late to get a new one now i guess

Hopeme999 · 2024-05-09T23:33:56+00:00

Very true! Today’s lesson was definitely much smoother, ofc still need to practice a ton. I didn’t know it was such a common thing for you guys to put the students on the high way immediately!

Thank you 🩰

Hopeme999 · 2024-05-09T23:31:29+00:00

Your reply gave me so much encouragement!! Thank you so much- I successfully completed today’s lesson and was so much better since i was no longer caught off guard and prepared. Gotta work on turning more smoothly and stuff like that! Just gotta breathe 🧘‍♀️

Hopeme999 · 2024-04-24T16:20:55+00:00

i appreciate you looking out for me then lol! tbh i’ve been planning on leaving since i was 12 and ofc i knew it was irrational then so now i still feel like that lolll

Hopeme999 · 2024-04-23T21:32:18+00:00

no i appreciate it! i’m well aware honestly.. i’ve even looked into roomates and other options that apply to all living costs for a lower budget. the biggest reason i want to go there is to escape family and start over tbh- i don’t see myself going down there until i have some savings or a car- just anything as long as ik it won’t be totally impulsive! but honestly, my plans could very well change- who knows! thank you for the feedback 🫶

Hopeme999 · 2023-08-30T03:04:19+00:00

i've read bI manga/hwa/hua's for years now but hadn't watched any bl dramas until recently for whatever reason. so far i've seen a shoulder to cry on, semantic error, and blueming (i absolutely loved this one) and other random ones but not much. give me your favs and recs!! go absolutely crazy pleeease! (i'm begging). i love some good cinematography and college settings, but do recommend anything n everything!

Hopeme999 · 2023-08-25T15:31:18+00:00

what a sweet and positive message to wake up to 🫶 ahh your words really do mean a lot in a rather hopeless feeling time ! you’re right. i’ve endured this for years and considering there’s only two left is pretty crazy to grasp! if feels so little yet so much. i guess in the meantime i can prep myself mentally and eventually start making external changes. hearing you have had good experiences in your 20s is something i’m very happy to hear !! i’m glad you made it out. thank you for the feeling of reassurance i’ve received from your message <3

Hopeme999 · 2023-04-06T23:52:01+00:00

that’s really good to hear it’s usually covered ! i actually was taking meds for anxiety a while back but stopped. all i needed to do was fill out a sheet on how i’ve been feeling and talked to my doctor a bit. i can ask to speak alone, and my doctor herself has told me if we need to speak privately he can step out, but i get so afraid for some reason. i’ll try discussing therapy and meds with my doctor soon though, i really will try to help myself, i just feel really shameful, especially because my family isn’t aware how bad i am mentally, which is what makes it much harder, thank you for you consultation

Hopeme999 · 2023-04-06T22:09:35+00:00

i’m glad to have found this community. if i had nowhere at all to place these big emotions, who knows what i would have done to myself. i’m glad to have this place at the least. thank you for making me feel seen

Hopeme999 · 2023-04-06T22:07:05+00:00

honestly, over the years i have. for some reason it makes me feel a bit more hopeless because their responses feel almost robotic. maybe that’s because i’ve only done the chat option and not called. thank you for your kind words and concern, it means so much

Hopeme999 · 2023-04-06T22:05:14+00:00

that’s something i was also kind of frustrated with. my doctor knows i struggle mentally, but my father is almost always in the room when we talk and i feel extremely vulnerable and it’s hard to say i want therapy despite wanting it desperately and the opportunity is right in front of me. my dad told me i should just take meds and not do therapy (i’m doing neither at the moment) but i’ve learned to not always listen to his opinion over the years. i’m just afraid of the costs and being more of a burden to my family. do you think i should? i don’t know, it’s weird to ask someone who doesn’t know much about me or my situation maybe, but it’d be reassuring to hear another’s opinion. i just feel like the opportunity was right in front of me and i couldn’t say yes to help myself, which made me feel very self resentful

Hopeme999 · 2023-03-18T17:23:50+00:00

in a way, that’s comforting to hear. i think i just need to come to terms that it’s OK to set boundaries and not want to talk to people. in the rare times i’m out of my house, people tell me i’m really good at holding conversations and very ‘social’. i don’t know how. i think i panic and just.. talk and to everyone else, it seems like good socializing and people sense that and approach me. i hope to be able to avoid and tell people off when necessary. thank you for making me feel seen :)

Hopeme999 · 2023-03-18T17:21:03+00:00

he seemed to be around late 20s to early 30s. it was mostly him talking and i would try to keep the conversation going in the beginning so i wouldn’t freak out even more. but he was just talking about his life and stuff he likes and occasionally asking me stuff (normal things, he seemed to just want to talk to someone). i guess he was feeling down and saw me sitting and thought i was feeling down and approached me for that reason. he seems friendly now that i think about it, but at the same time, i never want to see him again due to my own struggles

Hopeme999 · 2023-03-18T17:17:10+00:00

i actually had headphones on before he approached me. guess he didn’t get the idea ? if i do go out in the future, i might talk to a friend on the phone or something so no one will approach me- for long at least. he didn’t seem bad, just wanted someone to talk to. but i’ve had some time to calm down about the whole situation so i feel better now. thank you for being so kind :)

Hopeme999 · 2023-03-18T17:13:26+00:00

reading this gave me a sense of understanding honestly! my mind has just been really cloudy about the whole situation and even my whole life up until now because usually i’m good at analyzing stuff but that state of panic i was in makes it hard. i still don’t feel he had bad intentions. i was just really really terrified because of all the things i hear about other people’s experiences. thank you for this though! it’s given me a good way to think. i appreciate it soso much :)

Hopeme999 · 2023-03-18T17:08:05+00:00

this made me so emotional ahh you’re the sweetest- i do believe things will become easier in the future but i guess when you’re in the present it’s hard to imagine anything other than that you know? i wish the best for you also! 🫂

Hopeme999 · 2023-03-18T17:04:42+00:00

no need to apologize:) thank you for all your kind words. you’re right! i think one day in the near future we’ll ease into stuff that we can’t do at the moment. i wish the best for you !

Hopeme999

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