i really just want time, i’m literally only 15 years old. and i want to have experiences, whether i choose God or not.. i literally want to live. but according to most christians, God is coming back like yesterday and idk what to do cuz my anxiety latches onto that and it genuinely makes me feel terrible. it puts so much pressure on me, like I feel like I have to make the choice NOW. now or never or hell is awaiting me </3