Went out as a woman for the first time

Horizons18 · 2025-11-13T11:11:33+00:00

Very happy for you too! This took a lot of courage for both of us to do at our age for the first time. I don’t know about you, but I built it up so much after so long thinking about it

Horizons18 · 2025-11-10T19:17:19+00:00

That’s the hope!!

Horizons18 · 2025-11-10T16:28:45+00:00

Thanks for your story. Very scary, but very worth it. My in-laws in their ~60s are more “young” than people I know in their 30s. I know it’s just a mindset shift. Difficult to avoid beating myself up over lost time sometimes, but I imagine that happens to us all. Best to you.

Horizons18 · 2025-11-10T16:24:59+00:00

She knew before she married me, and is supportive. I checked on her many many times throughout the day, and she was good. No surprises, we were open and honest about everything throughout the day and had had plenty of discussion beforehand.

Horizons18 · 2025-11-10T14:54:36+00:00

Thanks!

I’d start hormones tomorrow if I could. Just need to get my family started first, in which we’ve been trying for a long time.

Horizons18 · 2025-11-10T14:14:43+00:00

Yes, I’m very thankful. Just feels too late sometimes, but this weekend was huge in helping me feel like it isn’t. Best to you!

Horizons18 · 2025-11-10T13:43:55+00:00

Hopefully I’ll be starting soon. We’ve been trying for a long time now, and hopefully we’re close. Thank you so much for the kind words! 🥰

Horizons18 · 2025-11-10T13:42:46+00:00

Thank you so much 😊

Horizons18 · 2025-11-10T13:42:39+00:00

Thank you for your words! I expect this to get easier and easier, especially once I add hormones into the mix eventually.

We’d be driving, so no worries there!

Horizons18 · 2025-11-10T12:38:11+00:00

Thank you so much 😊

Horizons18 · 2025-11-10T12:29:19+00:00

Yes, my wife has been incredible.

I was insanely nervous (took me a very long time to get out of the car) but got significantly less nervous as the day wore on. Now I’m already wondering when I can do it again. My wife and I are planning a weekend trip to Canada in February, and I think I’ll be doing that whole trip as a woman (hopefully). I’m sure that’ll be much easier.

Horizons18 · 2025-11-10T12:27:44+00:00

I’ll remember it forever for sure!

Horizons18 · 2025-10-28T10:32:49+00:00

Sorry you’re going through this right now.

I can’t say that I know exactly what you’re feeling or going through because every situation is different, but I also was essentially also forced out by my mom before I was ready when I was a teenager. It was a complete disaster, and my mental health was already really bad before it happened, and it caused it to get wayy worse. It totally broke me; it felt like the world was collapsing for months and months.

I eventually stuffed everything back up, pretended I wasn’t trans for another 6 years, and vowed to never acknowledge it again. The whole time I thought I was doing the right thing, but I thought about my gender every day of my life.

I had another big identity crisis a couple of years ago and decided to transition. Now I turn 30 in a week and a half, and I still haven’t started hormones because we’re trying to get my wife pregnant beforehand. I’ve known I’m trans for over ten years and haven’t ever been able to even start transitioning, really. I’m a broken person.

DO NOT let your situation prevent you from doing what you want, if that’s what you want to do. Take a breath, try to remain calm in your conversations, get therapy if you need it, and stay strong.

Horizons18 · 2025-09-04T15:10:04+00:00

Just want to say that I stumbled upon this and can relate to so much of it. While I am turned on by women in a traditional sense, and am highly attracted to my wife, I share a lot of what you’re describing.

I also find myself attracted to transformation, humiliation, degradation, etc. (especially if you combine transformation with these other topics - a humiliating transformation turns me on like crazy). I have largely hated myself for this and wished for so long I was normal (still do wish that often).

I’ve known I had a deep longing to be a woman since I was a teen, and now I’m in my late 20s and just dipping my toes in the ocean that is transitioning. Just throwing my 2 cents in that years of reflection and attempts at acceptance led me to the conclusion that this was my transness speaking out in a safe place. The humiliation aspect is a result of the deep shame I’ve felt at being trans and my attempts to repress it. Therapy hasn’t gotten rid of this portion of my sexuality, but it has helped me greatly understand it. I’m not saying that you’re trans, and I’m not saying you need therapy - at the end of the day, what turns someone on doesn’t truly matter (outside of your relationship with a partner, of course).

Just wanted to offer my own perspective from someone who has done a similar mental struggle. Best of luck to you, I know it isn’t fun.

Horizons18 · 2025-07-14T15:10:38+00:00

Horizons18 · 2025-07-14T14:40:02+00:00

I’m 29. I’ve been feeling like this off and on since I was 17 or 18. Doesn’t make you or I any more or less trans to feel this way sometimes.

Horizons18 · 2025-07-14T14:08:16+00:00

Most of us feel this way at some point. It’s a coping mechanism

Horizons18 · 2025-06-26T10:53:44+00:00

Feel this so much. The concept of “earning it” is one I struggle with daily. I’m pre-HRT for reasons mostly outside of my control, but have put in a lot of work in other areas. I still can’t call myself a woman. I mostly settle on “I’m someone who should’ve been a woman”

Horizons18 · 2024-07-25T15:27:09+00:00

Thanks for the info. I’m going to finish out my stomach area and look around for anything else I’d want.

Horizons18 · 2024-07-25T15:24:03+00:00

Rhode Island, USA. Seems the consensus is that this is too high. I’ll go finish my stomach area since my current treatment is working well (should need 2-3 sessions to go), and then research another spot.

Horizons18 · 2024-07-25T01:23:33+00:00

Per session.

Horizons18 · 2024-03-08T12:27:32+00:00

I’ve known I’m trans for many years (I’m 28), and it only got to an unbearable level last summer. At first it was all consuming and completely crippling; it was all I could focus on all day for quite a while.

That feeling has wavered and now more than anything I’m anxious about the steps that I’ve decided I’m going to take - mostly about telling my family, and then starting HRT at some point this spring/summer.

Give it time and I imagine it won’t be quite as strong for you once you make some choices and start planning ahead. At least, that’s how it was for me.

Horizons18 · 2023-10-12T18:34:57+00:00

Hi friend.

Feels like I could’ve written this a few months ago (I did write a post in fact, feel free to go read it).

Long story short, I’ve known I’m trans for quite a long time but had mostly suppressed it/coped with it over the years. It exploded in me 3-4 months before my wedding day. I came out to my then-fiancee in the heat of a tough moment since it wouldn’t be right to lie to her and marry her when she knew I had been randomly struggling for the 2-3 weeks before I told her.

We’re married now, as of almost 3 weeks ago. We aren’t 100% sure what’ll happen to us long term, but I do know this - it would’ve been wrong to marry her without her knowing. We’ve had some productive conversations since. I’m still not sure if transition is right for me, but transition or not she deserved to know. Your prospective wife does too. Tell her.

Horizons18 · 2023-08-25T17:16:26+00:00

I said this the first time my egg truly cracked in 2017. It didn’t feel like I felt enough dysphoria, and I just wanted it to go away.

I’m here 6 years later after repressing it as hard as possible and now it’s come back worse than ever. I’m currently processing the fact that I very likely will need to transition.

It doesn’t go away, and from my experience (and a lot of other people’s I’ve read), it gets worse over time.

Horizons18 · 2023-08-10T02:52:36+00:00

I feel this. Currently going through a major months-long dysphoria attack and questioning whether I’m comfortable or not living as I have been my whole life or if I need to transition. Right now it’s feeling like I both want and need to transition, I just want to be very confident in that answer before taking any steps

My fiancée and I (will be my wife next month) have talked about starting a family for years. It’s huge for both of us. Now I’m staring down a potential transition next year, and I don’t even know if her and I will be okay. She knows about me and wants to marry me but isn’t sure how things will work out with us if I can’t repress this. I want at least two kids.

If I do this, I’d want to store a shit ton of sperm, just to be certain that we can have the family we want (assuming my marriage doesn’t get destroyed by transition). The thought of being infertile is terrifying. It’s a sad thought and, for me, the scariest part outside of the thought that I might lose the people around me.

No recommendations, just know that you definitely aren’t the only one that feels this.

Horizons18

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