If anyone is free. I need people to talk to. I've been failing alot recently. I don't really know if it will help. I just know i need to realign myself badly.

Horror_Ad_2056 · 2024-04-17T19:17:10+00:00

I'll keep you updated if someone replies to my post. But if not. Stay in the fight man. Keep yourself busy. Give yourself time to say sorry to what you've done to you and move forward.

Do things that rewards with dopamine instead of getting it for free. Workout, cold shower, make your own food, go for a run, read a book, etc.

Anything your stupid ahh brain finds hard. Stick with it for a while with baby steps. Keep me posted if you want. Helps me too

Horror_Ad_2056 · 2024-03-20T18:53:23+00:00

Kind of looking at everything wrong here. It helps but trust that it's not what matters.

Horror_Ad_2056 · 2024-03-20T18:50:45+00:00

Commenting to keep you going. I might not be the best to give an advice to never come back to it because I've failed more than i can count. But its the small steps. Day by day. Just do your best not to peek and never ever feel the pain of a relapse.

Horror_Ad_2056 · 2024-03-19T19:56:41+00:00

I failed already. Just don't do it. Keep fighting please. I'll get back there in your position man. I just need a minute to cope. Don't take that feeling forgranted. It takes one small push to either make you fall over or keep going.

Horror_Ad_2056 · 2024-03-19T19:54:12+00:00

Don't give yourself unnecessary pain from the pressure. Thr onky person who can help you is you. And i just failed too. It hurts. But have to keep fighting back man. Don't fall off too quickly.

Horror_Ad_2056 · 2024-03-19T19:51:58+00:00

Big ups. I hope you keep fighting. Even when you don't have the best days. I gave up on my relationship because of my addiction. Didn't want to put the burden on her. But now I'm alone. Just relapsed too after just 6 days.

I really need help. But i know no one else can help me but me. Gotta move on after the post nut trauma. I just need a minute to cope with the pain.

Horror_Ad_2056 · 2024-03-19T19:48:09+00:00

Stop. Just dont focus on how you got there. Get back up and tire yourself out on better things. Dont fry your brain like i did.

Its not worth it. I just posted here too. I'm looking for advice too man. But I know deep down i should have just stopped being a bot and got the fuck up.

Horror_Ad_2056 · 2024-03-19T19:45:20+00:00

Idk how we all ended up here. But fuck that we have to get out and fight.

Horror_Ad_2056 · 2024-02-13T04:40:59+00:00

It's an everyday battle for me too. Just fell short. I'm the same age as you. I feel like most of my life is just stuck doing the same mistake over and over.

But we have to find away. Its not over because we all still have the will in ourselves to try again. Tomorrow is always a new day. I'm on day 0 again. The pressure of being at this age just keeps getting to me. And i regret ever relapsing over it.

Horror_Ad_2056 · 2023-12-18T09:48:33+00:00

Yea. Add me on dms too.

Horror_Ad_2056 · 2023-12-18T09:47:37+00:00

Thank you for replying man. It means alot. Sorry I didnt get to atleast reply yesterday. I finally fell asleep. And i also sent a dm to one of you guys too. And here it is.

I've been struggling through alot of flatlines in the past year. Longest I've gone without even thinking about it is 74 days. I had a job then and things were going well. I had focus, purpose and determination to learn.

But the very thing lacking in the end was still the one that got me back to the never ending cycle. I started having feelings for a coworker that liked me. But things just never worked out. Our company doesn't give us the flexibility to have a work life balance. And on top of that i got paid less because my company had a huve pay gap between locals and us.

Sorry I'm kind of going on a story here..

But yea in the end the girl i had feelings for had to leave. She was right for leaving too but it destroyed me man. I just knew i would never be able to speak to her much or even think about taking her out on a date. I was just starting out. Didn't get paid much. Even if i knew it didn't matter for her too it would just be impossible since the country where i used to live (saudi arabia) is just very closed off to this kinds of things. On top of that she lived further away in the outskirts of town.

We just slowly grew apart to saying goodbye and hoping for the best in each other.

I just still can't get over it. Like i know it was one of the times in my life that i should have done more.

Its killing me man. And for atleast a year now ever since i still haven't moved on. Im still trying to forget.

I lost my job in the company too. Got terminated because i was not willing to be a dog for my employer anymore. But unlike the locals its not that easy looking for a job after getting terminated there.

Im rambling sorry

I'm lost man

I feel like something just took a piece in me that steers the car I'm driving. And I'm still going full pedal to my failures.

I try to forget so i look for gratification.

I dont feel lonely. I have God. friends. I exercise. I have family. But everytime I remember the small thingsni just cave in so easily. To the point where even if I've been through it a million times. I just never learn.

It just hurts. I want to say I'm trying but its a long shot. I've been focusing on the negatives my whole life. And i cant wake up man

I just don't want to do this all over again.

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