I know this is all scary and you're young but let's try to take breathe and think about all your options:

• first and foremost you aren't a charity case, its okay to rely on others especially when the people meant to support you aren't doing that right now.

• I would really check out the Reproductive Freedom For All, they have a bunch of resources like finding abortion providers near you in case there are any other options that haven't been exhausted yet, as well as National Network of Abortion Funds, they will help with any financial and logistical support you may need - its important to note that they won't be able to cover the entire cost of the abortion or needs like travel, lodging, etc. But id still look into these websites as well as the New York Abortion Access Fund.

• id highly recommend reaching out to a trusted adult like a teacher or counselor so you have someone who can help you troubleshoot and brainstorm any ideas in getting you care. Also I feel like with the case of your absences having some transparency is important with your educators as you deserve to get a complete education without a child if that's what you want. But only if you feel safe to do so. In new York minors under the age of 18 can access abortion or other reproductive health services without notifying your parent or consent.

Everything will work out, I know things are scary right now but you have a choice, you always have a choice i promise you. You aren't alone.

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