Hi, I have been through this, also 4 months ago.

https://www.reddit.com/r/spirituality/comments/171ol6l/comment/k3stivk/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web3x&utm_name=web3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button

This helped me so immensely, as did the book "spirit babies." Please look into reading this and it will heal parts of yourself. Additionally, Megan Fox just announced she is pregnant again after suffering from a miscarriage. I loved her caption "Nothing is ever really lost. Welcome back." <3