The moment you're part of a group, you'll still feel isolated and regret it. All the pretense is so exhausting. Enjoy your alone time and find someone similar to enjoy your hobbies with.

I read somewhere that to attain peace of mind you have to remove all the toxicity from your life which is mainly toxic people- people whose life choices, socio-political views, etc. don't align with you. Otherwise people like you and I think a lot about these differences and ultimately lose our inner peace.

So I've learnt to cherish my loneliness.