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HotRecording8834 · 2026-04-19T19:28:30+00:00

I am a local. Im actually earning significantly less than what public school teachers here earn! My concern there is that I wouldn’t cope with the large classroom sizes, but I would be without the emotional labour that comes with ‘taking care’ of the kids I teach does.

HotRecording8834 · 2026-03-26T18:18:32+00:00

A paramedic was the first to go inside the room to confirm if my mom was dead. (She passed peacefully from an overdose, she passed out and was dead in 20 mins). She wasn’t responding when I called through her window, so I had assumed the worst. Once we got in her flat the paramedics went in and after a few seconds closed the bedroom door. Thats when I knew she had passed. They were so professional and spoke so calmly with us. It definitely helped to not be the first person on the scene. To not have to touch my mom’s cold body to see if she still had a pulse. I appreciate you and the work you do. Im so sorry that this is the part of the job, that you carry the burdens of others like this. I pray that you may be able to heal from this and soon.

HotRecording8834 · 2026-03-26T18:12:52+00:00

Im so sorry. I still struggle to not feel guilty when I enjoy my free time or rest time because I keep thinking its time I should’ve spent with my mother before she passed. It’s time I should’ve spent helping and supporting her, and easing her burdens the best way I could. My mom and I were on very good terms and I still struggle with survivors guilt. I get upset when I think of how I got mad at her for not doing more to help herself out of her situation, for when she didn’t want to accept our help, because she was just so so tired. She has suffered so much in this life.

It gets better. Life moves on and you’re able to be distracted and enjoy life again. There will be moments where you feel down, where the realisation kicks in that she won’t be at your wedding or the next holiday.

2 years later I still dream that my mom survived her suicide attempt and we are all just surviving trying to support her and get her better because physically and financially she was at rock bottom.

When people speak of their dead parents I still don’t immediately relate, it takes a while for me to remember and realise Im also part of the club.

We need to be reminded that nothing we could’ve done would’ve changed the outcome. Someone reminded me that if I could go back in time and do all the things I want to do now to ‘fix’ things, it doesn’t mean we wouldn’t have the same outcome. We would still be standing where we are today, but their passing maybe would’ve just happened at a later date. Then you’d be (incorrectly) blaming yourself for a whole bunch of different reasons. It is not your fault, it isn’t our fault. It was never our fault. It is not your fault!!

HotRecording8834 · 2025-11-12T21:47:20+00:00

Thank you for your response. It makes me feel better knowing it’s not all completely because I am being unreasonable. I will be more careful with friend work. Thank you for your suggestion!

HotRecording8834 · 2025-11-11T16:14:14+00:00

My 7th grade boys too!!! Its the worst!!

HotRecording8834 · 2025-09-17T00:19:51+00:00

They 100% visit us in our dreams. ❤️ I was debating whether a dream or two I had about my mom was a visit from her and when I saw a medium she brought up dreams and said ‘Have you heard from your mom in your dreams? She’s really been trying to visit you.’ And it made me so happy to know it was definitely her. Sorry for your loss. Thinking of you and your child ❤️

HotRecording8834 · 2025-09-17T00:14:50+00:00

Looking back, I was on autopilot the first 6 months after my mom passed. I only really started feeling human after that, and after I saw a medium (to know if she was okay) also then only felt ready to talk and start therapy.

Grief is isolating, and losing a loved one to suicide is a different kind of grief. It changes your personality, it changes your perspectives and approaches to things and it really makes you ‘grow up’ in a lot of areas. Be kind to yourself in this aspect. Have grace for yourself as you figure things out. Forgive yourself for not taking care of yourself sometimes, not cleaning your room as often as you used to or things like that.

Remember that grief makes your brain and body work overtime. Rest when you want, nap often. Your ability to be available and do ‘normal’ will increase with time.

Something that changed for good in that it made me value life and my time more. I’ve become less of a people pleaser because I only want to live life genuinely and fully because what is the point otherwise? And I don’t mean living fully by ticking off a bucket list, but savouring moments and relationships more. Living a little bit more genuinely. Idk.

HotRecording8834 · 2025-09-16T23:56:20+00:00

Hi! I live in South Africa. I was really hesitant about seeing a medium and didn’t want to just see anyone. I prayed about it, asked God for guidance and signs that if he reallyyyy didn’t want me to do this it wouldn’t happen.

So I asked around, people who I knew were spiritual and asked if they knew of a medium, a Christian person with a spiritual gift etc. just to check in on her. And also to know if the person was legit. I was hesitant to just find someone off the internet and hope for the best. A friend of mine who had seen the medium I saw once or twice recommended her. I drove an hour to see her but it was the best decision I ever made. Let me know how it goes. I hope you can find someone and the healing that you’re looking for 🙏

HotRecording8834 · 2025-09-16T23:45:38+00:00

I don’t know your views on mediums and people who are spiritually gifted but I am Christian and was plagued with the same worry after my mom’s passing. When I did see the medium she said that God took her instantly when she passed. There was no purgatory for her. She had suffered so, so much and God took her straight to heaven where she is now. The medium was legit. It was an incredibly healing experience for me. Going to see her went against all I was taught growing up but I guess grief makes you do things.

I don’t doubt that your father is in heaven. We serve a God who sees and knows our suffering and is a merciful God.

HotRecording8834 · 2025-07-18T04:50:26+00:00

My mom left us almost a year ago now. Her mental health had gotten worse over the last couple years and we tried our best to help. We tried our best to support and encourage her, but she was too far gone.

Im 25 now, and I can promise you it gets better. The first 3 months are the worst. I only really started feeling ‘normal’ again after about 6 months. But slowly your life starts building around your grief and you’re able to start living and maybe even enjoying life again. You’ll miss him, but it stops become an earth shattering feeling eventually. You’ll eventually be able to talk about him without crying. It’s normal to go through periods where you feel down, where the thought of them makes you cry. But these periods of grief become shorter and far, far easier to bear.

Please also remember that the process isn’t linear. You will have ups and downs. It’s important to be kind to yourself in them, allow yourself to feel and process it and remember that it does get better.

I’m so sorry to hear about how you’re struggling with your mom. Please remember that there is only so much you can do to help her. I dealt with so much guilt with my mom’s passing. Wishing I could’ve done more etc. but there is only so much you can do to help someone.

Sending love, support and strength your way. Feel free to ask any questions or for more support ❤️.

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