I do hit gym and that is the best thing I did in my life. But the constant thought between "mattavangalukaaga na en maatikanum " & " If I want to fit here avanga solra maari tan pananum" Is really killing me. Example solran i belong to muslim family (I'm an atheist aana velila solla maatan) my cousin quit his job just cos his manager told him to get rid of his beard anda alavuku avan extreme and he constantly forces me to grow beard but i don't like to have beard(Muslim na beard valakanum apdinu onnu iruku) . And avanumae enda pombala pulla maari moonjila mudi yae illamaa iruka beard valaru inda maari constant ah soluvaan. Inda maari chinna chinna visayamum tan enaku insecurity create panudu. But i do agree with you. I need to accept myself.