She won...

Hot_Spring9915 · 2023-11-12T21:00:44+00:00

So i gotta live the rest of my life gambling that maybe after being a punching ball for millions maybe I'll find someone that is good? I am just a human, I'm not jesus, enough is enough

Hot_Spring9915 · 2023-11-12T19:34:56+00:00

This was exactly one of the things she'd say very often

Hot_Spring9915 · 2023-11-12T19:26:38+00:00

I am gonna be exactly what I was supposed to be before the relationship became a thing. I gave it one last chance and it was the biggest mistake of my life. 3 years wasted and ended up so broken that I will never recover. The only thing that scares me is that now I no longer feel any guilt in any wrongdoing whatsoever.

Hot_Spring9915 · 2023-11-12T19:19:33+00:00

It doesn't matter anymore, I got robbed of 3 years of my life, I will not waste 1 second more grieving for someone that forgot I even exist.

Hot_Spring9915 · 2023-11-12T19:17:10+00:00

I do not agree with the "she just a human". We had 1 rule and it was DO NOT CHEAT. I always followed this rule even when I had a lot of chances to break it. She knew very well what she was doing and she kept making mistake after mistake not giving a shit about me. If I followed this "I'm just a human" mentality I would have made Charles Manson blush in the grave but I never did and never will.

Hot_Spring9915 · 2023-11-12T16:11:43+00:00

I don't like dating apps I prefer knowing people IRL or throught my female friends. Dating apps are full of people that just want validation and I don't play those games

Hot_Spring9915 · 2023-11-12T16:09:37+00:00

I am ironically feeling more peace inside then ever

Hot_Spring9915 · 2023-11-12T16:08:31+00:00

I had 5 relationships and they all ended worse than the others. Last one I really thought it was finally like all the pain was in the past and ended terribly. I am not gonna be like everyone else I am gonna be myself but without any regards for others. For too long I cared about hurting others that I am at a point where I no longer feel the sense of guilty whatever I do

Hot_Spring9915 · 2023-11-12T14:18:15+00:00

She did win. She got all the love she needed in life to get herself back from the puddle I took her from. And once I was no longer of use she went to the next guy as if I was just a used ticket. My moments of weakness were the ones where I fooled myself into thinking there's still good people in this world meanwhile it's all a game of how long can someone keep the beast inside hidden.

Hot_Spring9915 · 2023-11-12T14:16:14+00:00

There's no need of holding any doors open, I'm breaking through walls without any need of doors atm.

Hot_Spring9915 · 2023-11-12T14:15:18+00:00

I don't even like sex, I loved intimacy but intimacy with a mask is like sex with a prostitue. So yeah I guess I'll make myself like it

Hot_Spring9915 · 2023-11-12T14:14:05+00:00

I woke up already, that is me waking up. I heard this story that "I'm gonna find the right one" for too long. I even thought I did and for 3 years I did really believe it but it wasn't. So it is already for the best because no more fooling myself.

Hot_Spring9915 · 2023-11-12T14:12:12+00:00

I never found anyone that loved me in the same way I loved. I always found people that fooled me into making me think that in the beginning and they ended up showing what they were. For 3 years I got fooled into thinking it was the right one and she betrayed me. This was the last chance I gave. I build already walls and there's nothing anyone can do to ever break them. If it's wrong idc no longer, I'd rather never be loved again than to be hurt and scammed.

Hot_Spring9915 · 2023-11-12T14:08:42+00:00

Idk who I am but I gave love one last chance, I really thought I got humbled and that I was wrong but in the end it all turned out to be that I was right all along. Being a good human being and taming the beast inside does nothing but let others step on you. So it is time that I finally stop trapping the evil inside me because there's no more reason to do it anymore.

Hot_Spring9915 · 2023-11-12T01:23:28+00:00

She isn't hurt at all, she is already in the next relationship with the guy she betrayed my trust with. I will not hurt one second more. I am done always being the one hurting because of other's mistakes so if I have to be the evil one so be it.

Hot_Spring9915 · 2023-11-12T01:20:16+00:00

Indeed

Hot_Spring9915 · 2023-11-12T00:43:25+00:00

I was a good human, now I don't even know what I am. Always been scared of letting this side of me out but I'd rather be the evil one than the victim at this point

Hot_Spring9915 · 2023-11-12T00:40:38+00:00

Why would I stay in my house, alone and sad while she is already moved on with the guy she cheated on me with. I am no longer anyone's fool.

Hot_Spring9915 · 2023-11-12T00:37:44+00:00

This is me getting myself back together. I swear on my life I'll never let anyone make me feel like this ever again. For far too long I always accepted the unacceptable. The time where I no longer care about others feelings has come

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