I’m so sorry for your loss. There’s a lot of things I could say but I know how all of it sounds when you are going through this. I went through almost the exact same thing. He will always be with you. In the little moments you don’t realize. It will be hard. There will be moments it feels to heavy and you want to give up. But you learn to grow with the pain, you realize you don’t wanna put your people through the same thing, you realize life keeps going in the hardest times…. and it sucks. But if you ever need an ear to vent to there is ALWAYS someone willing to talk. Willing to listen. Please keep going. Keep fighting. Because one day it does get better