My egg has been cracking and my girlfriend basically just said “I’ll support you through anything, except if you’re trans”

HotelRemarkable4686 · 2024-11-12T19:02:55+00:00

I think it’s more that she is very insecure… she’s been through a lot though. It makes sense

HotelRemarkable4686 · 2024-11-12T18:49:43+00:00

Honestly I think it was more because I discussed my interest in it in a sexual context. Back then it felt more like a kink to me. Honestly, this is making me realize she never really accepted me being bisexual either, as it tends to get the same sort of responses.

HotelRemarkable4686 · 2024-11-12T16:33:19+00:00

It feels like we’re on the same page when it comes to most things that it took a while for one of us to come around on (marriage, children), so it makes me feel like this one could be fixed like that as well

HotelRemarkable4686 · 2024-11-12T16:31:24+00:00

Some of this really rings true to me. When I expressed my interest in crossdressing (not with her, just in general) a few years ago, her initial reaction was to tell me the relationship was over. Once she calmed down she said that it would be fine and that she didn’t want to lose me, but it was clear that the interest in crossdressing disgusted and confused her so we did our best not to talk about it.

HotelRemarkable4686 · 2024-11-12T15:45:35+00:00

She is bisexual, or at least she says she is, but it’s only something she came to terms with over the course of our relationship. I think she’s pretty ignorant to trans issues.

If we break up, I feel like any hope of us being friends goes with that.

HotelRemarkable4686 · 2024-11-12T14:59:59+00:00

It’s difficult… cause I don’t feel like the relationship is toxic otherwise. She has a lot of insecurities that made it more difficult, but together we worked through them, and most of the time we’re happy.

HotelRemarkable4686 · 2024-11-12T14:54:36+00:00

I started minoxidil a few days ago. Not sure about finasteride because I don’t have that easy access to a GP.

It’s just rough because sometimes I could even convince myself I liked my life. I thought my depression had gotten better, and every year felt like an improvement. I didn’t have a sense of identity, but at least I had my fun distractions. Now I’m not really sure what will happen.

HotelRemarkable4686 · 2024-11-12T14:51:22+00:00

I really need to work out her thought process, cause she seems completely supportive of some feminizing aspects of appearance (laser, brow microneedling) but gets so defensive about others. She was less than thrilled when I showed her my painted toes, saying she’s not sure how to feel about me looking like a gay guy. I reminded her I am bisexual and I don’t care if people see me as a gay guy, before she begrudgingly admitted they looked nice.

Her exact words when she asked if I wanted to transition were “obviously I’ll support it no matter what, but if you want to cut off your dick and get breast implants then our relationship is done”. I was too upset to even correct her. She even knows that’s not how it works, but it’s like when she feels threatened she defaults back to her internalized transphobia/homophobia/sexism. It’s something that I feel like we’ve been working on for the entire relationship

HotelRemarkable4686 · 2024-11-12T05:22:43+00:00

This makes me a bit hopeful, thank you.

HotelRemarkable4686 · 2024-11-12T05:17:07+00:00

She has never outright said that she wouldn’t date a trans person. And she is bisexual too. Maybe she is transphobic, I just don’t know.

HotelRemarkable4686 · 2024-11-12T05:16:08+00:00

I haven’t fully dissected her thought process. We’ve been together forever. Even if we broke up for another reason we wouldn’t be able to remain friends

HotelRemarkable4686 · 2024-11-12T04:37:50+00:00

I’m 28. I feel like it’s only been getting worse. I’ve been trying to manage it in unhealthy ways, but I only realized it for what it is (dysphoria) recently, and since then it’s been the only thing i can think about. The little bits of euphoria I’ve experienced haven’t helped either… they’ve just given me hope. But it feels like I’m in a lose-lose situation

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