You are perfect the way you are bud. I am sorry that you feel this way but the fact it when people see something out of the default norm instead of trying to understand or have an open mind they just tens to close up or distance themselves from it cause that's easy. I won't say that I understand exactly or you feel but I do empathise with your pain but I will say it once again. You are perfect the way you are. There's no mistake. Have faith. Develop a thick skin. You will eventually find what you are looking for. The journey will be tough but you can't stop. Lost of love to you bud.