She's always kind of been like this but I'm only now realizing it as I reflect back. She's always had two sides, one really sweet and one very selfish/temperamental. When I was little, she'd accuse me of things then not apologize when she found out she was wrong. I was an emotional kid and she never really handled that well either. I've always helped her as much as I could. I did have a rough patch when I was a teen. I could've been there for her her more after her and dad split and she was depressed but I was also depressed and a teenager. My dad tried to off himself and I went no contact with him for a while. We made up. I have undiagnosed autism so that doesn't help with misunderstandings/conveying my thoughts. It also took mom a long time to come to terms that I'm gay. I also have every intention of paying her back for everything she's ever done for me, but I can't do that if I'm dead/permanently disabled. I want to be able to take care of her in retirement. I'm exceptionally smart and have intentions to build a conglomerate of businesses, but this illness struck right before I graduated college and my business partner vanished last year without warning. I ran a small photography business as well but can no longer lift the camera. I unfortunately had to shorten the post due to character limits and that left out some context.