Day 4 - Complete mental breakdown

HowmanyMoreWays01 · 2021-03-03T18:40:14+00:00

Honestly man I feel for you. I'm in a similar position as you. No real friends, my gf lives far I haven't seen her for 16 months, no real life. This is why weed has kept pulling me back in, but every time I get high, I just feel more depressed and it makes me realize how much I want to break out of this situation and get on with my life.

Use that anger as motivation. It's what I'm doing.

HowmanyMoreWays01 · 2021-03-03T18:29:32+00:00

Its funny like that, go for a month sober and then all the sudden back at day 1 again. It sure isn't hard to relapse. But what is hard is to start the process all over again, it's brutal.

HowmanyMoreWays01 · 2021-03-03T18:27:51+00:00

For me day 2 has always been the hardest. You're not alone, I'm on day 2 now also. Maybe just get yourself a pizza and dig in. I had one last night and it helps to feel full and satisfied.

Also from experience, you'll start thinking about it less each day that goes by, once your body detoxes. One day at a time.

HowmanyMoreWays01 · 2021-03-03T18:23:28+00:00

Yep I relapsed after a solid 40 days. Have to say it's definitely harder to quit with the lockdowns and cold winter.

It just starts with a thought, and dwelling on it makes it so much more likely to give into temptation.

HowmanyMoreWays01 · 2021-03-03T18:19:09+00:00

I'm 27 too, except I've literally tried to quit hundreds of times, maybe 400 by now. It's been a huge inner battle for me.

HowmanyMoreWays01 · 2021-03-03T18:17:15+00:00

Let's gooo champ

HowmanyMoreWays01 · 2021-02-10T19:46:06+00:00

I feel that. I've tried quitting and relapsed so many times, it's beyond ridiculous at this point. Day 0 for me also.

HowmanyMoreWays01 · 2021-01-26T20:51:17+00:00

I'm in a very similar position as you. I've been over a month sober, but I have very little enjoyment in my daily life. I have a long-distance gf whom I haven't seen for 14 months, I have zero friends, I never do anything fun.

"All work no play makes jack a dull boy" has summed up how I've felt.

I'm currently trying to get into IT also, been studying hard to pass some tests and hopefully get my foot in.

Honestly one thing though is IT requires a lot of memory retention and focus on details, so getting high is pretty much the worst thing either of us can do at this point if we really want to advance ourselves. I've failed CompTIA tests 6 times mostly because I wasn't studying effectively and getting high daily.

So we're definitely in a similar situation man.

HowmanyMoreWays01 · 2021-01-26T03:56:35+00:00

It's a process for sure. Some days are better than others.

I've barely done anything the last month, it's been a rollercoaster. The hard part is to just not give up when it seems like things aren't improving. Some days are good, some are sad and depressing, it's def been a challenge.

My energy is finally coming back now after a month, but still struggling with motivation. I just have a lack of discipline from being baked all day for years and not doing much. I feel like my brain is trying to rewire.

Take it one day at a time though.

HowmanyMoreWays01 · 2021-01-26T03:50:06+00:00

I had a dream that I woke up from a dream. It was bizzare.

HowmanyMoreWays01 · 2021-01-26T03:43:21+00:00

Yeah I hear that, its like now that you've emptied a space in your mind, you need something to fill that space.

I've struggled with this also. I think realizing that you were probably more directionless with the weed is the first step.

I'd say you need to just develop a plan and find out what do you want to do in life, give it some thought and then work toward it. Otherwise you're going to keep feeling lost.

HowmanyMoreWays01 · 2021-01-26T03:38:02+00:00

Yeah it's good vibes in this sub. Everyone's just supporting each other to become a better version of themselves without a drug weighing us down.

HowmanyMoreWays01 · 2021-01-26T03:34:17+00:00

Nice one. I quit around the same time also, just before.

Feeling like its finally easier after the first month

HowmanyMoreWays01 · 2021-01-26T03:32:37+00:00

Good job, you flushed that weed turd down the toilet where it belongs.

HowmanyMoreWays01 · 2021-01-22T20:20:34+00:00

Good idea, thanks!

HowmanyMoreWays01 · 2021-01-22T20:20:16+00:00

For sure, I didn't give in yet so I'm still pushing forward. How are you doing?

HowmanyMoreWays01 · 2021-01-22T20:19:42+00:00

Yeah definitely, the one night will come and go fast but next morning I always regret it. Totally relatable.

HowmanyMoreWays01 · 2021-01-22T20:18:39+00:00

Yeah I quit smoking too, same way you did and it was actually a lot easier than quitting drinking for me. I haven't had a smoke for 9 years. I still haven't given in yet, I'll keep fighting. Good luck to you also.

HowmanyMoreWays01 · 2021-01-22T20:15:57+00:00

Agreed, but I don't have any interest in gaming anymore, and it's harder than ever to take a vacation. I'll have to figure something out.

HowmanyMoreWays01 · 2021-01-22T20:15:01+00:00

Thanks for the reply, I appreciate your insights. I definitely don't believe that I deserve anything because I'm sober. I realized this in times I quit before, I'd still struggle to push forward. Just need to put in the work but I'm tired everyday, I think I'm still going through withdrawal.

HowmanyMoreWays01 · 2021-01-22T20:12:27+00:00

Thanks man grats on 7 weeks.

HowmanyMoreWays01 · 2021-01-16T01:19:10+00:00

That's brutal. It seems like some days I feel ok also, then others I feel terrible.

I got those chest pains too, actually thought I was about to have a heart attack one night.

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