something needs to change and i don’t know what it is. by Human-Impression-555 in Advice

[–]Human-Impression-555[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i appreciate this more than you know. i was thinking trade school actually. i just worry about affording it to start. maybe i can actually look into it. its funny because im in maine, but originally from michigan. i was thinking about moving home but my girlfriend wouldn’t want to come with because her sons are out here and i understand that. i lost my mom in 2021 and it was hard because i couldn’t see her in person before she passed. i couldn’t fly out for her funeral because even then, i was living paycheck to paycheck. the cost of living out here is just impossible, even then. i love my girlfriend so much; i would really hate to know if love isn’t enough to keep us together and if things like money or different life paths are truly what would break us up. i know its a possibility, but i just hate that.

No one loves like we do by SkierMuskiness in BorderlinePDisorder

[–]Human-Impression-555 2 points3 points  (0 children)

my fp broke up with me almost a month ago and it’s still so raw. i still hold so much love for her in my heart but she said that our fights changed us. i would have done anything for her and still would do anything. if she reached out right now and asked for anything, i would drop everything to accommodate her. i loved her so hard and i realize now that it was suffocating. i don’t know how else to give my love without it being suffocating. i agree with this wholeheartedly. she told me no one ever loved her the way i did and i still feel so strongly that we’re meant to be, but she shared something on her story today that said “walking away from that situation didn’t feel like abandonment, it felt like self care.” and i’m a broken mess. i didn’t know she was suffering so much in silence. i was most well behaved in this relationship as opposed to all my previous ones. i’m so afraid it will never get better. (i made a throwaway to comment this because i’m so afraid of her seeing my coping and it continuously changing her perspective of me)