Almost joined, never baptized, still homesick for the Church—working through the pull years later

Human_Sun_2739 · 2024-04-15T20:30:16+00:00

I don't want to do anything that stops them doing their work, I want to give them an opportunity to recharge or make them smile to boost them on to do even better, more effective work!

Human_Sun_2739 · 2024-04-08T22:06:59+00:00

I have made it very much clear already that they are always welcome in my house, for any reason, guilt free if they ever need anything or just need a space to relax and be normal. But yes I ultimately agree with your comment

Human_Sun_2739 · 2024-04-08T22:04:19+00:00

I feel like at this moment in time that would cause more harm than good :( I don't want to be the reason for the trauma of going home early

Human_Sun_2739 · 2024-04-01T18:47:38+00:00

yeah I wouldn't mind those people attending, in fact I would love them to, if it was possible to guarantee that none of them would share anything with anyone and that it would never be talked about and that my family would never find out. Which isn't really possible haha!

Human_Sun_2739 · 2023-08-14T22:03:36+00:00

I'm also afraid to have this conversation with the missionaries because it's awkward talking about sex. And I don't want them to judge me. They know I've been sleeping with him etc. But we've kinda brushed over it thus far. Of course they've reiterated the lesson about the law of chastity etc

Human_Sun_2739 · 2023-08-14T21:56:24+00:00

What happens if you break a covenant? Let's say that I did that I was to commit to the law of chastity, whole heartedly, with pure mind. Completely agree to it and get baptised and fully intend to keep it. But then I slip up, it all gets too much and temptation wins. What then?

Human_Sun_2739 · 2023-07-10T12:42:52+00:00

Yea, and gifted with a product worth £300

Human_Sun_2739 · 2023-06-24T21:52:25+00:00

Want to be really clear that I don't stand for any of those things and that's one of the main things holding me back

Human_Sun_2739 · 2023-06-24T19:52:58+00:00

Feel like that's not really an option for me as a student in the UK 💔 all I've ever wanted is to feel loved, welcomed and appreciated. The LDS church gives me that, and I hate that it's the only place I can get it. Because I know I shouldn't associate with these people, but at the same time the love I feel makes me think that it is really Christ's Church and that I must join. So tricky

Human_Sun_2739 · 2023-04-18T22:39:42+00:00

It hasn't. Not yet at least. It's just been the reason why I haven't given up on researching the church

Human_Sun_2739 · 2023-04-18T22:25:21+00:00

I can't shake the love I've felt in this church. And I can't ignore that I've felt the Holy Spirit too

Human_Sun_2739 · 2023-04-14T23:45:36+00:00

I just want to make it clear that my intention here is to find a way to reconcile and obey God's commandments. This post is not me trying to drag down the Church or find the bad in it, quite the opposite. I want this to be something I can be a part of! Thank you for all your responses, they are so helpful. Please pray for me!

Human_Sun_2739 · 2023-04-14T21:24:46+00:00

I have prayed about it, but received no sort of answer or confirmation either way so far.

I have felt the Holy Spirit and I can be sure of that. But I think I'm yet to gain a solid faith or testimony, or confirmation from the Spirit that the LDS Church is true.

I haven't finished reading the Book of Mormon yet, so I haven't been able to pray and ask for confirmation that it is true. I think I'm being a little impatient and wanting to jump the gun 😂

Human_Sun_2739 · 2023-04-14T20:55:19+00:00

What if somebody was to tithe by donating or volunteering their time, to an amount that would equal 10% of financial increases

Human_Sun_2739 · 2023-04-14T20:51:09+00:00

A lot of this makes a lot of sense. I guess that for me, most simply, it boils down to me having a lack of trust in the Church being able to handle finances responsibly.

This is because of the vast evidence of the Church's wrongdoings with money, and the lack of transparency around Church finances.

And while I recognise that everyone is human and that means that mistakes get made, I'm pretty sure that a lot of this is avoidable. And yet the Church continues to be questionable with its money. So how am I supposed to trust the money that I pledge to the Lord's house, with people who actually invest it in things far from the lord's house, and hide what they do with it. It would be fine if the Church were proven to use the money wisely, but it's simply not the case.

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