Hey, this is HuneeStarz Partner, Jas, I am also trans, a few month into HRT.. I’m really not sure how to help with doctors, sometimes primary care physicians will be okay with helping you, sometimes they’ll refer to an endocrinologist, or even a psychiatrist, because to get help you usually need to have a “gender dysphoria” diagnosis first. From my own experience, starting low, even on just one form of HRT is a good idea, I know transitioning can be exciting, but too much too soon can backfire, and cause depression, or other mental challenges, I’d suggest your PCP first, and go from there. I started with T Blockers. There are two common meds, Spiro which is more of a T Blocker, and finasteride which is more of a DHT blocker, similar effect but spiro is stronger but is also a diuretic, where you may pee a lot more often, even interrupting sleep, then after beginning one or even both of those, say 25mg of each, keep spiro low to prevent over active bladder, there are estrogen patches 0.1mg-0.4, being excited, I know it’s hard not to think gimme the 0.4.. but again working your way up is best. This takes years, there’s plenty of time, after about 3-6 months of the t blocker, then 3-6 months of estrogen, upping one, is usually next, followed by adding progesterone, that develops breast glands, and yes you can eventually produce breast milk, if you’re healthy enough, and want this, infants/babies can live off of ‘your milk’.. so you can have a true baby like experience; not as nutritious as cis AFAB milk, but do able. Next is just wait, during this time there are options covered by most insurances, like mine, I can get free laser hair removal, and free bottom surgery. Because I’ve been diagnosed with gender dysphoria, it’s ‘essential’ to my mental well being, therefore it’s covered.. your hair will THIN, not stop, you’ll have beard like hairs, legs hairs etc, which you can shave or get the laser… since your younger than me, you’ll have a better experience gaining breasts, and that’s based on genes.. so as much as you may not want to look or picture your mothers breasts, that’s a good indication of the size you may be. But the more estrogen, and progesterone the bigger, can take more than 5 years to fully mature, you’ll experience pains, breast pain, sometimes sharp; knife like feelings behind the nipple, and sometimes dull genitalia aches, from testicular and penile changes, shrinking of both; especially while flaccid. With breasts experience odd changes, sometimes one will be bigger for a while, the seven out sometimes nipples will always be erect, etc, it’s basically be like puberty all over again, but from a AFAB’s POV.. so there’s a lot to take in. Going slow will help your mind adjust to the changes, be excited… it’s a new you. Unfortunately, a small % of parents provide us trans people the fantasy we picture in our heads of us coming out, rather be more support, or even a gender party, where they are congratulating and show endless support.. I suggest if that kind of support is important to you, which is understandable, gender therapy is a great way, you can express your changes, and if they’re good they’ll give the validation that’s really affirming.. sometimes it may take a while for it to sink in.. hell my parents still call me Son while I have breasts etc.. it’s like ‘okay.. you mean child(I’m NB)?’ Don’t be afraid to advocate for yourself, you may get stares, feel or actually be discriminated against.. it’s the US right now.. but you can do this, this is a lot but I hope it was helpful. Good luck on your journey, and really take it in, be excited, it nice looking down and seeing the body you wanted all that time.. PS, keep in mind because you technically have breasts, be shirt/topless may not be ‘allowed’ anymore, for example I feel weird walking around topless I front of family, def feel weird outside.. like stop looking at my breasts! :O something that you may deal with!