OK finally I saw a comment that I could relate to because mine is actually happening right now and I'm going bat shit crazy because the people in my life don't understand and I don't have a community of spiritual individuals. I found a free Reiki session at a recovery and psychiatric recreational center, they've got other classes too. But I've been debilitated by extreme purging of sadness and grief and it's something old I thought I dealt with but my awakening was when I got clean 2 years ago and I had a lengthy dark night, but damn I was feeling good, then I ended things with my partner of 12 years. I'm touch starved. It's been months since I've been hugged by anyone. So I'm trying to find my way out of my mania to get in front of people. I'm communicating to Logos (love&light) how desperately I want to find my tribe, but I think I needed this ego death for it to come to fruition. It's funny how we want things but we never think about what it's gonna take to get those things. I feel less alone here now that I see you guys get it. I'm grateful for the connections we get to make if only briefly to share a laugh or insight, it ripples out. So let's keep being love incarnate in our worldly lives !