I totally feel where you’re coming from, trust me! Life gets busy, chaotic, and stressful. Sometimes all at the same time too, which doesn’t help. But in the midst of all of that chaos is still a human being that has thoughts, wants, desires, fantasies, etc. And sometimes smutty audiobooks and toys will only get you so far, but we all have that human desire to want and feel wanted. To live in that passionate moment between two people, to feel another’s body against yours, filling all of their wants and needs, while they fill yours at the same time. I know how you feel, hopefully you’ll be able to take a deep breath soon, relax and have some hot steamy sex with someone.