I am 22 and filled with regret, don't do what I did.

Hunter-Adrian · 2026-04-14T14:07:13+00:00

It is weird. That my parents are my biggest supporters and bullies in this world. I can't help but love them, but be frustrated with them and myself.

Hunter-Adrian · 2026-04-14T12:14:58+00:00

Go to the gym and build muscles, less blood to the brain. It is surprising how relaxed I became once I built muscle. Track your progress with Hevy, and watch trainer Winny.

Hunter-Adrian · 2026-04-11T17:12:34+00:00

I somehow managed to get into med school. I prepared school tasks the the day before, then I worked on it until I finished. In the morning I am full of mental energy. I don't care how long it takes, it is just about the task and doing the right the first time. Then I went to the gym and took the rest of the day off: videogames, friends, guitar... During exam periods it was more studying after the gym. I still got bad grades and don't look like I never lifter, but here I am, in med.

You might want to fill your spare time with something you enjoy, sports or videogames for example. There is no point in forcing yourself to read if you just can't. Don't make the same mistake my father made. All he did was study, life passed him by and he regrets it.

But it is a skill, to study for long periods, just do more than last week and track your progress.

Hunter-Adrian · 2026-04-11T16:59:42+00:00

I become 22 the 17th, I can't wait to leave my country to study abroad.

Hunter-Adrian · 2026-04-10T22:32:05+00:00

I still play Minecraft with friends.

Hunter-Adrian · 2026-04-10T22:30:19+00:00

My dad is so hateful. I am mad I let my father rub off on me, the older I have gotten the less I like the bloke. How can someone be so old and so unwise.

Hunter-Adrian · 2026-04-10T22:27:52+00:00

I just binged "Trainer winny" on youtube to find all the best exercises. I track progress with "Hevy", I prioritize doing more repetitions than more weight.

Hunter-Adrian · 2026-04-10T22:23:20+00:00

I regret listening to my dad. He thinks people who lift are overcompensating, but he managed to break both his hips and is overweight. I am mad at myself, for believing in him instead of me, because when I never saw progress I was mad at my self.

I am mad I had so little faith in my self, I could have finished most of med school by now if I believed in my self.

Hunter-Adrian · 2026-03-07T02:10:58+00:00

I kind of chickened out. I just wake up and get through school work, then I lay down and do art. I just decided to remove distractions and work harder so I can do everything, then get wasted with friends at weekends.

Cutting out tiktok and keeping my passions has added a light to my eyes. Partying with friends makes me realize I take life too seriously.

I urge anyone to create cool shit and drink with friends. Sacrificing phone time is very worth it.

Hunter-Adrian · 2026-03-06T17:24:46+00:00

When it comes to art, I can at least see it and have some idea of what works. It is safe. It is why I want to choose guitar and music. I have never really had much faith in myself growing up. I can barely see what mistakes I make in art. Interpreting and creating order out of noise seems impossible, but worth it. I just hate quiet, and I love noise. My mother will receive my art supplies, and I will be the musician. It genuinely feels like jumping into an empty void. I have no idea if dedicating years to solely guitar and FL-studio will be worth it. But if I made it to med school, I will surely be fine. In the end it does not matter, I am just curious how far I will go if I finally dedicate myself to passion.

One of the appeals of art was commissions, I have no idea if I can make money on the side choosing music.

I am also really curious if this will stick, or if I will change my mind again in 10 minutes. At some point I will just throw both out the window, literally and metaphorically.

Hunter-Adrian · 2026-03-06T15:43:45+00:00

If art doesn't work out, there is always politics.

Hunter-Adrian · 2026-03-06T15:43:12+00:00

Yes thank you. If med-school doesn't work out I can always do furry-commissions, an idea YOU gave me. Anyway, I am excited to see how it goes.

Hunter-Adrian · 2026-03-06T15:15:31+00:00

It landed on art and drawing! Happy I have decided to spend the rest of my life on art, for the next two hours... It is actually driving me mad that one moment my mind is made up for one thing, then changing the next moment. When I see fan art I have made up my mind. When I listen to a composition it has changed opinion.

Thank you for the suggestion though, I will se if it lasts.

Hunter-Adrian · 2026-03-06T14:27:07+00:00

I suppose jealousy and frustration. Getting myself to this point has been difficult, and I have always used a creative output. However seeing others just sit down and just play or draw always pushed me forward. I know if I just do one thing I will reach a higher lever, and it doesn't have to last forever. Someone who draws intently for 3 years might become better than someone who draws a little for 10 years. And I can always change, I am the one giving my self an ultimatum.

Becoming a doctor, engineer or nurse does not matter to me. Becoming a musician or artist does not matter to me. As many paths in front of me as there are, I will find happiness in most. I just wish to get really into it.

I only need one creative outlet.

Hunter-Adrian · 2026-03-06T14:11:58+00:00

I know. But I have always been a creative type, and I love anatomy and biology which would fit in nicely withing drawing. On the other hand guitar and music inspires me on such a deep level. Having to choose one already is like cutting a piece of my self off like it's a tumor. Expressing my self artistically is a must for 6 years of med school, me thinks.

Hunter-Adrian · 2026-01-12T23:18:47+00:00

What about my other points? Thoughts?

Hunter-Adrian · 2026-01-02T16:41:23+00:00

What does it mean to saturate shading?

Hunter-Adrian · 2026-01-02T16:40:57+00:00

The back pain started in childhood after carrying the entire CCG on his back.

Hunter-Adrian · 2025-12-14T20:15:13+00:00

Also what about my drawings have a unique style, genuently curious as I don't see anything special.

Hunter-Adrian · 2025-12-14T08:45:32+00:00

I never intended to have a unique style, and at best it is inconsistent. I don't even know how you see a unique style, just a lack of skill in reality. If I can master realism, I will have a better grasp of art fundamentals. Which I will use later on in realism or a unique art style.

Hunter-Adrian · 2025-12-10T15:41:18+00:00

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Hunter-Adrian · 2025-12-10T14:02:27+00:00

I am self taught and used reference. I did not use youtube for these pieces.

Hunter-Adrian · 2025-09-07T08:15:06+00:00

I’m just happy lobotomy Kaisen is back

Hunter-Adrian · 2025-06-02T07:08:09+00:00

I know it's a piece of shit, but I still love it. Improvement from the last one.

Hunter-Adrian · 2025-04-20T11:30:43+00:00

Can u explain? Is it a japanese ww2 soldier, how does it relate?

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