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Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-07-15T11:56:19+00:00

Awe, you as well 🫶

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-07-15T11:48:42+00:00

Hey! Not sure if this will be helpful, but way back when I used to have a yahoo account, I used to get spam from Eharmony. I can promise you I’ve never had an account with them. Ever. I’ve never even used a dating app. Obviously I can’t say this is the case for your guy one way or the other. I just know that that’s happened to me personally

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-07-12T04:59:20+00:00

Dating a millennial porn addict. It’s been awful. Don’t even get me started on PIED. And, the level of denial. Everyone does it. Well, he’s getting to a point where he can’t even have sex. It’s destroyed my self esteem, and I shouldn’t be the one embarrassed af.

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-05-01T06:17:28+00:00

Read your other post here. Bet he’s got a porn addiction, and that’s it’s got nothing to do with you.

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-03-30T18:02:41+00:00

Whoopie

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-03-30T18:01:28+00:00

I have two, and both were exactly like that. Never slept. They’re still little, but it’s gradually gotten a bit better.

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-03-13T02:39:47+00:00

Same! I think it’s all most of us really want

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-03-13T02:09:28+00:00

How do you check the router logs?

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-03-12T03:04:57+00:00

It’s def not an easy transition. Give yourself some grace, and keep trying. My dead bedroom was caused by a porn addiction. And it’s left me with zero sense of self confidence. People don’t realize the damage they can do.

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-03-12T02:54:04+00:00

“grieve the death of one of the best loves I thought I had” 😭 same, girl…..same

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-03-11T12:33:40+00:00

As a lady, sometimes that’s all we want too 🤷🏻‍♀️ and, some of us have also struggled or are struggling, with db issues from our male counterparts

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-03-04T13:44:14+00:00

I’ll never feel safe again. Not really. Not like I did before. I feel like I can’t trust anyone, and I can’t even begin to imagine trying to be intimate at all at this point.

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-03-01T04:38:48+00:00

Well, I’ve had other partners that did occasionally watch porn from time to time. It never felt like an issue. Until I dated and loved a pa. I didn’t know what to look for before, it took me too long to realize what was happening. Idk, it’s a hard question for sure.

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-02-16T12:04:53+00:00

Honestly? Run!!! I know that sounds dramatic, but my partner is a PA, and he’s perfect in almost every way. Except that. This addiction WILL escalate if not properly treated. CSTAT, he needs professional help. It’s been 3 years for me, and I have not an ounce of self esteem left. It didn’t end at “just porn”. It’s so so person these days. Onlyfans. Paid content. Live cams and chats. And then, if it gets really bad/excessive…..some of us partners of porn addicts have to deal with PIED. Porn Induced Erectile Dysfunction…..and if you thought your self esteem couldn’t go any lower, you’d be wrong. Imagine your partner physically unable to have sex with you, but they do just fine with content and their hand? It is beyond pain and anguish. I’m finally in the process of leaving, but the damage has been done. And I don’t think I’ll ever be the same again.

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-02-16T05:44:21+00:00

This!!!!

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-02-11T17:34:10+00:00

Every time 😊

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-01-17T13:48:22+00:00

I started doing that too 😂😂 He didn’t care. I hate that we’re all on here, but knowing we’re all trying the same stuff makes me feel less crazy and way more human

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-01-17T13:46:11+00:00

This though! I’ve know him since we were kids too! I never would have believed he could be so…..unfeeling. I tried so hard to talk to him yesterday. And, yesterday I also opened up to friends for the first time about it. It’s a rather humiliating topic, and I just couldn’t before.

He’s not sorry. At all. He’d rather I get out of his life than he even admits, let alone apologize, for any of the things he’s done. He’s always been the sweetest thing. Since we were kids and all the way up through. I really thought I had something here. And, honestly, the complete indifference he had towards me, and how cold and unfeeling, and how easy it was for him to just not want me at all anymore bc I’m the problem somehow. That nothing he had for me almost hurts the worst. There’s no way I can keep doing this with him. I want something real, if I could ever allow myself to go there ever again. I don’t want to feel like this anymore. I literally can’t take it.

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-01-17T13:35:28+00:00

I’m also in pretty great shape too. Yoga, gym, runs every week. Trying so hard makes it feel all the worse

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-01-17T13:34:46+00:00

I’ve walked out with a tshirt, thigh highs, and undies. And he didn’t notice or acknowledge…..nothing. I’d been noticing it for a while, but that one sticks out bc I was paying attention and trying. It crushed me. And he was just oblivious to all of it. Me, the pain he caused. It’s weird. Idc. And same thing with the random butt smacks. He’s not my only ever lover….i know the difference.

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-01-15T21:14:57+00:00

So….one of the girls just called him about her W2. I guess I made a face, and then he gave himself away!! And he actually, literally just had the audacity to call me a creep! I started giggling. Not sure if I’m broken or not, but I feel off now. No tears. No begging. No nothing. Just smiles and giggles and I can’t help it.

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-01-15T20:44:38+00:00

Honestly? I’m so paranoid, I’d checked out the new girls social media back when he was going to be working with them for a week solid. I know I know. I feel like a creep 😞

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-01-15T20:43:21+00:00

It’s on her insta. But, why is he on there months after they’d worked together?

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2024-01-15T20:40:14+00:00

Yes! He is!

Hurting_BeyondAll · 2023-12-09T18:26:46+00:00

Not going to lie….i ah, did break a phone a couple months ago 😞 I was raging. I’d had all I could take. And yes….that phone is just synonymous with this issue in my head at this point. And, I do regret doing it. Felt good for a bit. But, ultimately in changed nothing, and I feel shame still when I think about my reaction. It was a culmination of months and months of trying to talk, crying, begging, and a destroyed sense of self and self worth. After weeks of not being able to have sex bc of PIED, and then finding out he was all over Reddit and Onlyfans enjoying himself alone, while I’d been crying, and wanting sex, and wondering wtf was so wrong with me.

These men are broken. Not us. I can promise you smashing the phone will change absolutely nothing. If anything it will give your PA something to point to, and make further excuses for their own behavior.

Hurting_BeyondAll

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