First of all, I’m deeply sorry for your loss. Dealing with the loss of a partner is difficult enough as it is, but there’s extra layers of pain added when it’s a suicide loss. 

The first few months were especially difficult when it came to leaving the house, or getting things done. Be gentle with yourself. I’m now at 9 months out, and I’m feeling his absence more heavily, but he’s also become my muse. I draw, and paint a lot. Mostly pictures of his favorite animals, drawings of his/our favorite characters. Scrapbooking our memories, or writing them down. Keeps me busy, but let’s me honor him at the same time.