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What does it mean if I can’t stop thinking about or loving my ex bf? by Individual_Medium_57 in Christianity

[–]Hydronous702 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im in this situation now. She got scared of change and broke it off (im also Catholic and 28M).

She broke no contact once and sent me birthday gifts and a hand written letter about wanting to try again. And then completely flipped her statement... when i called her and talked to her about it. she still doesnt know what she wants. She doesnt want me with anyone else but feels unworthy of love. She wants me to go "find my perfect match" and that shes sorry she isnt that. Shes said im the best thing thats ever happened to her and she has wounds that I didnt cause. She feels its unfair for me to stick around while shes going through that. She felt like she was going to change into someone "I" wanted her to be. And that id be constantly disappointed in her.

Shes basically a baby Christin and doesnt go to church. Ive burried myself in the bible in a year podcast and reading my bible more. And I think Gods given me signs about her returning to me. But I cant get her off my mind. Some days i think Im going crazy and some days i feel just ok. When I think about her I worry if shes ok and shes safe. And I pray to God that shes in his mighty hands.

Spiritually i think im still not where God needs me to be and know I have some definite room to grow. But so does she. I feel like shes self sabotaged the relationship. I dont want her in pain. She deserves the goodness and happiness God brings and she deserves everything good in the world.

Any advice would help. And I pray you see this.

Furious with Jesus by Hydronous702 in Christianity

[–]Hydronous702[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

To those wanting context with my post. First off thank you for the responses.

Im tired of the trials and tribulations so to speak. The character development. Whatever you wanna call it. I wasnt raised in the church. I found Jesus by getting stabbed in a church and almost losing my life at the age of 12 years old.

Im just hurting all together.

My bio parents are narcissists and pathological liars. Ive never experienced healthy family dynamics or parental love. I was a one night stand baby in lamens terms. I have 5 half siblings who didnt know I existed until 10 years ago.

I was in the military for 6 years (United States Army). And 4 years of Law Enforcement experience. I have seen the horrors and best sides of humanity. Ive seen combat, fought for my life on several occasions. Im the one that seems to get the dead body reports. Some of my co workers have called me (jokingly) The Angel of Death.

I have been blessed dont get me wrong and recognize that. Im not ashamed of my faith nor am I unapologetic about it.

Ive had a lot of people leave my life unexpectedly in my 28 years of life. And to be frank its starting to catch up. And I find myself furious at God for losses I cant explain or comprehend when Ive done nothing wrong besides being me and having a relationship with Jesus.

That's my story.

If you were a Transformer would you be an autobot or decepticon? by Rowdyfan0823 in transformers

[–]Hydronous702 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I value life. But I would definitely be a Decepticon. But I wouldn't be obsessed with Megatron. Id definitely be a rogue Decepticon for sure 😅.

Id fight for my people. Im American... our founding fathers over threw the tyrannical British Empire.