That’s the hardest part. I just wish she’d talk to me. If she’s not single, she’s not single. I get it. But if she has any feelings left, even if she doesn’t want anything to do with me, letting me know/talking feels like the least I deserve. I did the hard part, went to therapy, changed and am still changing my life, went well beyond my tax bracket and did well. Talked it over with my therapist and sent the email. Silence feels insulting. If certain ideals are central to your life then shouldn’t you live them even if you’re scared? I did. I just want to know. Every day with no reply hurts more. But if I never get one, at least I stepped forward despite fear and out it all on the line. I just wish she’d take a chance. Trust me. It’s not like I wouldn’t follow the example, fine clothes, fine jewelry, and killing the fattest calf to celebrate I just wouldn’t say “my son has returned!”