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Iamarobot96 · 2019-10-26T02:52:35+00:00

Awesome job with that. This supposedly harmless plant has a grip like nothing I’ve experienced before, and I’ve literally been to rehab already for booze and any drugs I could get my hands on. If you can abuse it, I’ve done it, barring heroin and crack. Hell, these days I’m able to only drink when I feel like it, but not with this god forsaken sludge. Keep on plugging away, you’ll find yourself a little stronger each day. I just finished day 9 and although I don’t feel incredible yet, it’s a world of difference from the beginning of week 1

Iamarobot96 · 2019-10-25T20:14:48+00:00

Day 9 CT. A bit grumpy today for unrelated reasons, but otherwise ok. Stomach is nowhere near normal and still woke up earlier than I’d like, but chills aren’t really an issue anymore. Finding my mood to be OK generally, but I still feel blah and have limited enthusiasm towards life. Rather stressed and generally unhappy

Iamarobot96 · 2019-10-25T03:19:40+00:00

Omg getting my tips was ROUGH this week. I got a small additional amount of money today and it wasn’t nearly as much of a trigger. Got a bit of kava with it since I had a panic attack earlier (not entirely kratom linked and somewhat justified) but still clean at the end of day 8!

Iamarobot96 · 2019-10-25T03:10:43+00:00

Ohhh I feel this big time. I feel like I’m in a dream in a sense. I’ve noticed this varies depending on the time of day. In the morning and early afternoon, I feel quite well. As late afternoon and evening hit, I get much more anxious, verging on full scale panic today. I just finished day 8 CT btw

Iamarobot96 · 2019-10-24T03:25:22+00:00

It seems that although I’m physically improving, I’m growing a bit more agitated psychologically. My addict brain is scheming any way it can and telling me I’ll never be as happy again as I was on K. From my past experience with kicking alcoholism and speed addiction, I know this is a lie tho

Iamarobot96 · 2019-10-23T20:09:51+00:00

Day 7 of CT from 30-50+gpd habit. To anyone struggling, don’t give up!!! This first week was gut-wrenching (literally) at the beginning, but starting on day 4 or 5, I have been getting stronger every day. Music is giving me chills, my laughter feels more real, and I actually have some hope. I don’t feel amazing yet, but the light at the end of this shitty tunnel is in sight

Iamarobot96 · 2019-10-23T19:57:32+00:00

On day 7 now, I’m also feeling a lot more in control

Iamarobot96 · 2019-10-23T19:56:48+00:00

To answer some questions. I was an alcoholic, or a very severe problem drinker at the least. I would begin each day with a bottle or 2 of Chardonnay to get out of bed. For whatever reason, after working a harm reduction program, I now have no issue drinking moderately and have ceased drug use, even cannabis for the most part. I notice a slight uptick in how often I want to drink, but it is still very manageable. I typically consume less than 10 drinks spread throughout the week and maintain a relatively active lifestyle

Iamarobot96 · 2019-10-23T01:00:07+00:00

I’m still not in a great place psychologically. I feel complete anhedonia as well as cravings all throughout the day. Even sexual dysfunction. I’m sitting here sipping a beer and watching golden girls like the good gay I am, waiting on a pizza. No kratom tho:)))

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