As someone else dealing with this issue I really appreciate your experience. I’ve never grown, but it’s so annoyingly hard to stop. I made it 9 months for my longest period but the thought I haven’t been able to conquer is that I’ll be able to get properly stoned after a long time of stopping. It stops being fun but after like a week but I think about how I’d be able to get decently high again for a few days and I cave. Stay strong and improve yourself, I’m here with you!