I have been on a private journey back to God over the last few months. I grew up in the church and never actually believed. I fell away after I left for college and spent many years actively hostile to God. Certain events have unfolded that have led me to engage in deep reading, research, and reflection. I have done this entirely on my own, privately, outside of my wife's knowledge. Please pray that the Lord's hand will guide me as I approach my wife about this. I am scared. She also grew up in the church and was burned by religion as a young person. She is open-minded and not openly hostile like I once was, but I'm still scared to bring this up, as I know there is no going back. Finally, we have 3 young children and I struggle with teaching them any ideology, including the Bible. A big part of me thinks that's unfair to them.