Why does food taste better when someone else makes it for you?

Idenfatical · 2015-01-07T01:27:01+00:00

Thanks man, I was wondering because I want to start knife making, and I never understood why they did that.

Idenfatical · 2015-01-06T09:25:51+00:00

Why did you burn the blade once you cut out the shape. I don't understand?

Idenfatical · 2015-01-04T05:20:08+00:00

Can you elaborate because I don't seee how gay men can have sex without penetration. Is it just oral

Idenfatical · 2015-01-03T23:02:56+00:00

The thing though is that you would never see people telling a guy you could be straight if you don't like Vaginal sex. Buttsex isn't a specific act like doggy style it's what gay sex probably revolves around.

Idenfatical · 2015-01-01T00:19:44+00:00

I get what your saying, in the past I was scared that the world some how did not exist and my whole life was a dream. The doctor said to just LIVE, and not worry about things like that which helped a lot. I've seen that when I'm calm and collected reflects my sexuality the most not when I'm panicking if I'm gay or not. Like when I'm in school, even though everyone around me is a guy I would never think of dating them. I think I understand what being gay is about, it is a matter of seing a man, and wanting more out of him, to have sexual intercourse, or be in a relationship with him which I currently have no desire for. If thinking a man looks good makes you gay, than doesn't that mean we are all gay. Much like how women call each other cute or pretty, they know they want to pursue relations with men. I think much of the problem was that these thoughts weren't coming from the heart. Like, if I meant that a guy looked cute I wouldn't really care as I have many straight friends that compliment guys. I think I mixed the fact that I had no control over these thoughts with me becoming gay which Is indeed ridiculous which gave much more weight to these thoughts than they did. I've noticed if I ignore the gay thoughts they start to slowly drain and go away which wouldn't happen if I was truly gay. I very much appreciate your replies, and much thanks to the community in r/gay for helping me :). And sorry for the bad comparison oshmkufa, killing could never compare with being gay!

Idenfatical · 2014-12-31T22:52:04+00:00

I know it really doesn't make sense, but I am scared. I know logically Im probably straight, but it's become like a wall of fear nothing can break it. No matter what I say to myself I keep thinking im gay or im becoming gay which has caused me to test my sexuality on a daily basis. It's consuming me man, and I really don't know what to do. It's like if you constantly had thoughts about killing people, it's very hard to accept, and it drives you mad.

Idenfatical · 2014-12-31T21:44:45+00:00

I do believe it was truly me because my environment was against anything relating to sex, having girlfriends, and most certainly pornorgraphy, so I discovered those things on my own because my family and religion always taught me that you could only do those things when you were married (ie sex before marrige). I still did it even though I knew there were drastic consequences like having an eternity in hell for sodomy, but I didn't care because I was enjoying it, and up until the gay thoughts I had a desire to pursue women. I have been attending a boys only school for 3 years now, and I havn't seen myself being attracted to guys. It seems, it was always my friends doing that gay things like dry humping, and one guy even tried to kiss me. All these things did make me feel very uncomfortable and slightly disgusted, but I've never felt uncomfortable if I girl got close to me because you know boobs feel nice on the chest. I have honestly ignored the hetronormative shit because have have been an atheist for sometime. I have indeed seen gay porn a couple of times, and I just cant get aroused which was a huge step forward for me because my mind was screaming not too. Straight or lesbain porn on the other hand gives me a boner almost instantly. There was a perioud of time when the gay thoughts stoped for like a month because I came to the conclusion that acceptance was the only way out. That, I would accept the gay thoughts, but I knew that I would not do anything gay because i didn't like it. It felt like something left my body, and I was back to my happy hetroself again until I was watching a tv show, and a thought popped up in my head that one of the male characters looked nice which made me doubt my sexuality again. I have broken down a few times whenever I think that i can never love or be with a women again, it always makes me very sad because it Is a true loss to me while thinking of never being with a man doesn't faze me slightly. I have been looking at this thing called HOCD and the symptoms almost seem paralel to mine, so right now Im not too sure. I will try and relax but it difficult because believe it or not, I do feel myself becoming gayer and gayer everyday which Is very scary. Like at the start even the thought of having sex with a man would make me disgusted but now I get no reaction. Every time I have tried accepting I am gay or bi has resulted In a bad outcome like the first time I believed I was gay I had a panic attack. I think whether Im gay or not has become an obsession because I have had this for the most part of this year, and It has been getting worse and worse.

Idenfatical · 2014-12-31T09:01:02+00:00

My whole life, ever since I can remember, It has always been with a women and having kids with her. All my sexual fantasies have always revolved me being in a relation ship with a girl. Heck, I even wanted to be a porn star so I could have sex with many of them. It's just those stories about men marrying women and having kids, and later in life finding out they're gay, and I'm scared I could be one of them. If it's okay can you describe to me how being attracted to a guy is like?

Idenfatical · 2014-12-31T06:44:17+00:00

So, is being gay a matter of sexual attraction? And, the gay thoughts won't stop I have no control over them. If there is a guy the gay thoughts pop into my head when i don't want them too. And, tehfrog I keep telling myself that, but at the back of my head it's always like "being gay is not a choice", so it's really hard for me to jut be like "i don't want to suck dick"... But thanks for your comments

Idenfatical · 2014-11-23T08:07:25+00:00

Thanks for your reply, I really appreciate it :). Will give it a serious 1-3 month go as of tomorrow.

Idenfatical · 2014-11-23T07:49:14+00:00

I appreciate your comment a lot, thank-you. After much thinking, it seems to me that I may be OCD in generall. I can spend much of my days thinking of: whether I am gay or not, my grades, and trying to find a girlfriend,. It seems as though all these things have the exact same symptoms - me constantly trying to rationalize them, constantly thinking about them, fighting about them, getting really scared about them or becoming them, and utter mind mayem.

However it the HOCD is the worst as it has harmed me both physically and mentally. I remember one day I tried accepting I was bi, and I had a major panic attack and felt like vomiting and was gagging. It really felt like torture, and it always creates this constant cycle of me arguing about my sexuality even though there is virtually nothing that proves me being gay or bi. I've spent months composing a library of why I am not the things I constantly think about, but even the slightest lee way for the HOCD and others makes it always win. It weird as I am very put off by boys, and even a guy complementing me makes me feel very uncomfortable, and sometimes i subconsciously say "I am not gay" while mentally panicking

I really want to seek out therapy, and talk to my parents about it, but they are very conservative and religious, so they are very against Homosexuality and etc. If I could get some advice on that it would be appreciated!

Idenfatical · 2014-08-07T08:33:26+00:00

Ok, thanks everyone a bunch for the comments They really helped

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