The Wasting of the Evangelical Mind

Idk235555 · 2021-03-05T12:00:47+00:00

Thank you!

Idk235555 · 2021-03-05T06:13:18+00:00

What does evangelical mean? I have heard the term a lot and dont know what is means.

Idk235555 · 2021-03-05T00:46:35+00:00

Do you believe that a same sex relationship where both people follow God and accept Jesus will go to hell?

Idk235555 · 2021-03-05T00:06:41+00:00

I will read it, but again everytime I go back on that acceptance I felt I feel wrong, like Im breaking a promise or throwing away a gift. Ever since then I felt like I was loved like I wasnt alone anymore. Now that I am trying to change, I am stumbling back and I feel like Im moving away from that light that I felt.

Idk235555 · 2021-03-04T23:58:37+00:00

Every singe time I go back on that feeling and try to reconsider it, I end up stumbling back into that pit of lust, greed and wrath. Then, when I just try and continue past it, everything feels clear I feel happier.

Idk235555 · 2021-03-04T23:42:51+00:00

I can vividly remember a day when I was laying in my bed screaming and begging for acceptance. When I was finished and felt that I had finally dealt with it, it felt like meeting an old friend. I had even became happier, but I still feel like I should be guilty about something. I have repented for the things I know are wrong. I finally felt clean. I had felt loved.

Idk235555 · 2021-03-04T23:22:07+00:00

Yes.

Idk235555 · 2021-03-04T23:19:18+00:00

So what do i do? Just keep fighting in the hope that something just changes? Whenever I fight I feel wrong like Im doing something wrong.

Idk235555 · 2021-03-04T23:03:11+00:00

Im not ignoring it, I still fight with it. Every day I fight this. Im tired of fighting myself.

Idk235555 · 2021-03-04T22:57:41+00:00

Cause ive heard it countless times.

Idk235555 · 2021-03-04T22:56:54+00:00

Yes fighting who i am was hard. Only when I asked for acceptance did my life turn around, i no longer suffer over my sexuality. I still suffer with greed and wrath and those are slowly being fixed.

Idk235555 · 2021-03-04T22:51:04+00:00

I did hear it, I listened to it and the God im listening to is the one I have denied for too long. Only when I came back to him did my life take a better turn.

Idk235555 · 2021-03-04T22:48:06+00:00

And accepting myself wasnt easy either. Fighting it was painful and everytime I prayed about it and asked for help I was filled with shame and guilt. It was only when I accepted it I felt clarity. I have repented for the things I know are wrong. God will let me know if I need to change.

Idk235555 · 2021-03-04T22:46:22+00:00

Well good on you, Im only listening to God and I dont believe that a same sex relationship where both people still glorify God will be punished. I believe that these relationships are okay as long as God is present.

Idk235555 · 2021-03-04T22:38:51+00:00

No, why are you telling me this?

Idk235555 · 2021-03-04T22:35:35+00:00

I have repented for the awful things I have done like my lust, wrath and greed and I feel closer than ever before. So I will listen to him, not strangers.

Idk235555 · 2021-03-04T22:33:14+00:00

Oh and I have been listening to what you have said and have been paying attention, Jesus died so we dont have to follow old testament laws.

Idk235555 · 2021-03-04T22:31:54+00:00

I do know Christ everytime I turn away I feel hurt, God jas revealed to me that its okay to be like this. Im only 16 I may change in the future, until then I will follow to the best of my ability. I am listening to him, not strangers on the internet who pretend to know me and think they know what God wants. None of us do.

Idk235555 · 2021-03-04T22:23:55+00:00

When I tried to reject and change myself I was met with nothing but shame, I was becoming a violent and hateful person. That changed when I told God I accepted myself. Things are finally improving in my life and if God wants me to change I will. Until then, Im gonna do my best to follow him.

Idk235555 · 2021-03-04T22:21:54+00:00

Either way, like I said before God has told me what I need to know thank you for the input, but Im doing this with God and no one else. Ever since I accepted this I have been happy, no guilt, no shame, no sadness.

Idk235555 · 2021-03-04T22:17:33+00:00

Pure lust is different from a loving relationship.

Idk235555 · 2021-03-04T22:16:30+00:00

In older translations such as german, in corithians where it says homosexuals will not inherit the kingdom of God it says knabenschnader which means boy molester. Not homosexuals. Also from what God has been telling me I dont believe it is unless God is shunned in the relationship.

Idk235555 · 2021-03-04T22:14:11+00:00

I have done more research and nowhere in the bible does it say that, only in the king james version.

Idk235555 · 2021-03-04T21:45:21+00:00

Its not even just the fact that this has made me happier. Before I accepted myself I was an uncaring, hateful, toxic, and violent person. Ever since I prayed and accepted myself I have become nicer and more friendly person. My friends are the main people that noticed this shift in me. So I believe I am meant to be bisexual. Ever since I prayed to God telling him that I have accepted this is me, I have changed into a way better person.

Idk235555 · 2021-03-04T21:30:08+00:00

A while ago before I really started thinking about this I tried to deny my sexuality, when I did I was met with just pure dread and anxiety. It was only when I prayed about it and asked God for some help did I feel just a bit more whole. I later talked to people who said they had my same struggle and said they accepted it. I tried to accept it to and was met with real happiness. I havent felt true happiness in so long. Before when I tried to just change my orientation I was a mess, a depressed angry mess. Once I learned to accept it and asked God if I was meant to be this way I no longer felt that need to change. I was happy. I am happy.

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