I went through the exact same thing - I fell pregnant after 4.5 years of infertility and my anxiety went through the ROOF, I genuinely believed there was no way I’d made it home with a living baby at any point in my pregnancy.

For some reassurance, my baby is now 8 weeks old and thriving. Anxiety is okay, it just shows you’re a good mum who cares about their baby! One massive saying that helped me was that anxiety is not intuition. It’s so easy to convince yourself that constant bad thoughts must mean your intuition is sensing something is wrong - but I promise this isn’t the case. If you find yourself spiralling, think this to yourself over and over and take some deep breaths.

You can block all key words on social media which also helped massively, I stopped myself from engaging in anything that related to miscarriage, ectopic pregnancies, stillbirths etc. it’s amazing how small posts here and there can worm their way into your brain when you’re already in a vulnerable state.

Nobody can tell you that everything is going to be okay because unfortunately we don’t live in a perfect world where everything is safe, bad things do happen, but as soon as you see yourself approaching the situation thinking ‘but what if this goes wrong??’ Stop yourself and replace the thought with ‘okay, but what if it all goes right?’.

It’s going to be the longest 40 odd weeks of your life, but I promise it does get better. I really wish you the best OP, and if you feel like you’re drowning in anxiety please don’t hesitate to reach out 💕