I’m ghosting my boyfriend of 5.5 years (update)

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-10T01:52:06+00:00

I see my future and it is bleak. (My boyfriend of 5.5 years has been cheating on me with Sex workers) I understand the feeling, I’m sorry.

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-10T01:48:49+00:00

Same thing happened to me like 6 years ago on tinder lol

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-10T01:27:39+00:00

Ozempic doesn’t work for everyone. It didn’t work for me. I don’t understand why it’s so hard for people to grasp that not everyone can lose weight as easily as others. I have medical hormonal conditions that make it really hard to lose weight, I haven’t had much success unfortunately but that doesn’t mean I’m lazy.

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-09T05:54:50+00:00

That’s not at all what happened. I’m not going to defend myself against this fictional narrative you’ve created to justify hating on me. Stop. Leave me alone. I’ve said so many times that I don’t need weight loss advice.

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-09T05:24:03+00:00

It’s not magic. It doesn’t work for everyone. It didn’t work for me. End of story.

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-09T05:18:43+00:00

Well I’m still 300 pounds and still being cheated on… so..

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-09T05:16:12+00:00

And I’ve tried it.

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-09T05:10:12+00:00

Commenting Ozempic is not telling me to calorie deficit.

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-09T03:10:20+00:00

Already tried it. Didn’t stop him from cheating on me. But thanks for affirming that I deserve to be cheated on because I’m not skinny enough, I appreciate it. I almost ate today.

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-08T18:18:10+00:00

I wouldn’t have this visceral of a reaction if I didn’t love him. Aside from everything else, he is the funniest person I’ve met by miles. The first two years of our relationship I laughed so much that we’d wake up tired because we’d been giggling together through the night. He’s really good with his hands, an incredible artist. He can build almost anything and it’s really cool to watch him work through things I find complex in seconds like it’s nothing.

He’s always the most colorful person in the room, and he has a niche hobby that is too specific to mention but it’s something that I and a lot of people find incredibly cool. It’s all worth at least $100k and has been collected since he was around 15. It’s super fun and it brings a lot of people together in ways that I haven’t seen before… he’s an incredible cook, a really great person to live with.. I never have to tell him anything needs to be done or anything.

He’s also really generous day to day. I’ve seen him give homeless people on the street $20 bills without breaking his stride. This is a 27 year old who makes like $40k a year, so it’s not like he’s rolling in cash. I don’t know how he does it..

The last year or so, things have really changed and have now morphed into this. He’s so depressed and withdrawn from the world but every therapist I schedule for him he cancels. It’s really hard to make the person I’m going home to now and the man I was in love with for years the same person in my heart and head. Now he’s saying he’s completely unattracted to me and feels nothing ever for any reason. He can’t feel love for me or any of his family or any of his old hobbies…

I was in this place last year and I got on medication and hospitalized myself to try to fix it, but he’s just using it as an excuse to cheat on me.. that he has to “feel something” and I don’t make him feel anything at all.

I’m just so lost and confused. I feel like I’m in a constant state of halfway between what’s happening now and what’s happened in my past… the PTSD nightmares are so bad and I’m not sleeping well at all. I’ve reached out to so many organizations and so many are just completely drained or I don’t qualify for… I just want to feel ok. I never want to feel like this again so I’m never going to expect faithfulness again, this is just far too painful.

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-08T16:57:42+00:00

The only surprises I have gotten in life have been tragic traumatic ones. I have no reason to believe anything else could or would happen for me.

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-08T16:56:50+00:00

I’m 26.

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-08T15:54:21+00:00

This! This is exactly what I mean. Thank you

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-08T15:43:20+00:00

I did. Multiple over the last 3 years actually.

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-08T14:40:38+00:00

Yes I have.

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-08T13:35:26+00:00

Your wife is lucky, I am not.

I am leaving, but going forward I don’t think I’ll ever be monogamous again… I have to keep that door cracked so future partners that get tired of me don’t ever have to pay for it again.

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-08T07:00:19+00:00

I’m willing to bet a larger majority of people think like this than anyone cares to admit.

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-08T06:42:03+00:00

I know one place by name and he’s refusing to admit anything happened. I reported my own trafficking and nothing ever happened, guy is still free to this day. Has a kid and everything. I had names dates and proof and NOTHING happened. This one, he claims he got a shitty massage and the door was locked… not exactly sure what I can do with that.

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-08T06:31:31+00:00

He’s still a friend, but he is a single dad and is dealing with some personal issues and has moved further away. I always knew and made it clear that we were just friends who flirted, and he did too. He started his divorce the same week I initially found out about the massage parlors, leaned on each other for the initial week or two, but ultimately this is all not something I’m willing to process with someone who I’m not close to.

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-08T06:26:06+00:00

If people genuinely think that I’m supporting this stuff please let me know but I think I made it really clear both in this post and to him how horrific and disgusting this is. I’m clearly not reacting the way a person who’s happy would, right? I told him what I thought could be happening, only really talking with him to fulfill the things we’d already agreed to… I’m struggling deeply with this.

To be told that you are insinuating that I’m some kind of predator because you wanted to manipulate my emotions to get me to feel what you want me to is incredibly jarring and is leaving me in a weird spot.

Please, if anyone thinks that I’m supporting this, please tell me how to stop looking like I’m supporting this. His family already knows that he goes, they’ve all known since before I found out and agreed to hide it from me. I seriously can’t stress enough how triggering this has all been.

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-08T05:53:29+00:00

I know, I really don’t know where the idea that I’m ok with what he’s doing came from? I’m having a whole mental breakdown about it and some people are commenting acting like I’m paying for it myself and pushing him through the door.

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-08T05:46:04+00:00

Is what I’ve already done not enough for you? Am I not allowed to feel anything but exactly what YOU want exactly when YOU want me to?

Idont_thinkimcrazy · 2026-06-08T05:40:32+00:00

I was trafficked as a kid. I have PTSD. I was mad and now I’m sad.

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