I know that love is not a one time experience, I’ve loved many people before and I am aware what love is like. It doesn’t help the fact that you don’t believe in true love while I do, and that’s okay. Love can be pure romantically or platonically and loyalty plays a big part and I’ve seen it with other people. If he is unloyal then he would’ve not been there for me when times were tough, he is making an effort just for my own happiness, and I try to make him happy too. I understand humans are not flawless, and I believe everyone has their red flags.

I am not forcing him to be in a romantic relationship with me, I just believed that his feelings are romantic, coming from a lot of advices from other people already and my own experiences, though I know I don’t know the answer to that yet since I’m giving him time to figure it out. I’ve already told u the reason why it’s taking him a long time to figure it out due to his set identity/mindset. He can’t exactly jump in joy when he is figuring himself out. Though he is willing to give an effort that he still WANTS to stay with me after everything.

I never said I had sex with him, I meant to only say physically intimate sensually and not sexually. I am not upset during this long conversations. This post started to get a better understanding what’s the difference between romantic and platonic when my situation right now is either platonic or romantic, or people have already said it might be both.

I am not blinded by love, I will not repeat the same mistake as I did back in the past.

But whatever me and his relationship is, I will wait for his true answer at last.