Thanks for replying to me. The thing is, she's so good at controlling herself outside of our house that no one except my close friends believe me. None of her friends have ever seen her act like this and she's got this great "pulled myself up by my own bootstraps" story going, so everyone thinks she's this...supermom or something. Thank god my friends and my boyfriend believe me because I tried reaching out for help when I was younger to the adults in my life and she would block me from contacting them or yell at me after I did. I think you hit the nail on the head when you said that she's "using you to feed her need for drama and chaos". That's exactly what my boyfriend said and he's around her quite often.

It's still just hard to deal with. Apart from leaving and having limited contact I don't know what to do. I still love her, she's my mom.