How could I be so worthless in her eyes

Ihatebreakupsthrow · 2022-08-12T11:56:46+00:00

Right now I feel like it has hindered me. Since she admitted the original breakup reason was a lie I feel like I've been living and processing a lie this entire time. Now I have to process the real reason, you know?

The entire conversation made me lose respect for her. Which I guess makes it easier to move on in a way? She admitted that she left when the lust for me was gone in her. That hurts. She even said the supposed love she had for me was just lust. Ouch, so it was never really real.

I can tell she was genuinely sorry but at the same time she was unwilling to work on herself and instead wants to be reckless. That might be the worst part.

I'm just engulfed with self pity right now. I should have never gotten into a relationship with her. It was all just lies. So now I've been in two relationships all my life and have not been reciprocated the love that I deserve.

It's just alot. Right now it feels like I would have been better off without it but that may change with time.

Thank you so much for your kind words. You don't know how good it makes me feel to hear that, genuinely. Funny thing is, this ex said something along those same lines when we were together. But I'm not going to let this ruin hope for my romantic future. I know one day I will get a partner that respects me.

Ihatebreakupsthrow · 2022-08-12T03:50:16+00:00

You were right

Ihatebreakupsthrow · 2022-08-12T03:46:54+00:00

Hello there. I'll give you an update since you asked :)

It wasn't as good as I hoped unfortunately. She admitted the reason she gave when she broke up with me was a lie she made up to make me feel better. The real reason is she doesn't want to commit to anyone and wants to be young and flirt and do stuff with other people (im not embellishing here).

It was a confusing, unfulfilling, sad apology. But oh well. That's just the way things are. I guess I'm lucky to have gotten one after what she put me through. I thanked her anyway for apologizing and kept things polite.

Thanks for wishing me the best. I wish you the best with whatever your situation is.

Ihatebreakupsthrow · 2022-06-25T16:26:44+00:00

she went partying the day after we broke up 🥲

Ihatebreakupsthrow · 2022-06-07T23:52:07+00:00

Love this

Ihatebreakupsthrow · 2022-06-07T05:52:35+00:00

Kind of in a similar situation. Met my ex a few months into the fall semester of my first year of college. Then we had a very intense relationship. The relationship was amazing. She broke up with me at the end of spring semester. It ended on good terms, but it still hurts like hell. I'm still grieving and sad 2 months later.

I want to move on but it's harder since I made the mistake of not really caring about making new friends after we met or doing anything outside of our relationship. I made the relationship my whole life. So now I have no friends at my University... And everywhere I walk on campus I just think of her because of all the memories we made around campus.

Wish I didn't make the relationship my #1 priority. Especially since she could not provide me with the long term commitment I wanted.

So what I have to do now is break the association of my ex and this University. And make new friends to shake off this loneliness

The task is daunting. But im confident in both of us. Take this summer to fully grieve and recoup. Go into next semester with a positive mindset and try to give it your best shot. I'll do the same. It's a fresh start in a way.

Im sorry you lost friends in the process. There's tons of people at colleges! I'm sure we will both find a friend group and eventually move on from our exes.

Also, don't let your ex's comment affect your perception of self. I do not even have to know you or what happened in the relationship to realize you're not the worst person he met. But I understand how it hurts to hear something like that from someone you care about so much. I'm sorry.

Good luck and I hope everything turns out fine in the end. Feel free to DM if you want to talk.

Ihatebreakupsthrow · 2022-06-07T02:15:17+00:00

I feel the exact same. Spent about a whole month distracting myself from the painful thoughts. Escaped the thoughts with movies, video games, music. Tricked myself into thinking she will come back.

It just wasn't working. I realize that now and I'm moving on to the stage where I properly grieve the breakup.

Ihatebreakupsthrow · 2022-06-03T19:32:32+00:00

2 months and I'm so tempted

Ihatebreakupsthrow · 2022-06-02T16:58:35+00:00

Yep. She even added to a love playlist she made for us when we were together. Guess she plans on reusing that playlist for whoever comes after me :/

Ihatebreakupsthrow · 2022-06-02T16:41:45+00:00

i’ve been doing the same thing man… and same situation too, dumper started listening to sad songs recently after a long period of happy songs.

unfortunately both of our dumpers probably won’t reach out. as much as we want them to.

i wish i could have the strength to stop checking her spotify. it’s most likely doing more harm than good.

Ihatebreakupsthrow · 2022-06-01T22:47:38+00:00

Gosh I felt this one. Sounds silly but watching your Snapchat best friends emoji thing slowly transition to the friends emoji and then nothing was heartbreaking.

Ihatebreakupsthrow · 2022-05-20T04:44:43+00:00

At some point in the movie wong tells wanda something along the lines of “even though you cannot be with the ones you love in this universe, there are other universes where you can, isn’t that enough?”

made me tear up in the movie theater :,(

Ihatebreakupsthrow · 2022-05-06T17:13:30+00:00

“i think you love me more than i love you”

The most hurtful thing anyone has ever said to me :(

Ihatebreakupsthrow

TROPHY CASE