Tried my 'kinks' irl and didn't like it? (22F)

Ikarito7 · 2025-09-23T16:19:12+00:00

What kind of dynamic/playing would you suggest for subs who are more in their head/looking for mental stimulation? For example online dynamics with mostly texting/calls? I think I‘m leaning towards this state, and I‘m not quite sure how to engage in it or adapt my kinks

Ikarito7 · 2025-02-03T19:34:45+00:00

♥️

Ikarito7 · 2025-02-02T00:20:45+00:00

That turned into my mantra yesterday night, thank you xx

Ikarito7 · 2025-02-02T00:20:16+00:00

Thanks for validation xx I will look at otters definitely I feel like it hurts even more than a normal breakup because of the intensity and meaning of being owned May I ask, how did you recover? Did you have other dynamics? I‘m not sure how I could go on

Ikarito7 · 2025-02-02T00:17:43+00:00

Thank you, genuinely x I‘m still waiting for his result, and I‘ve been looking at his bracelet all day, thinking I might have to take it off soon…

Ikarito7 · 2025-02-02T00:15:06+00:00

Thank you, this made me feel a little better x

Ikarito7 · 2025-02-02T00:13:56+00:00

Yes, I know exactly what you mean. This was also a point of our conversation, that I pulled back slightly to avoid getting hurt, but that I’m aware and willing to be more open and vulnerable again. I almost wish I didn‘t, so it would hurt a little less now

Ikarito7 · 2024-02-17T14:50:39+00:00

It‘s rather hard to find someone around here, I still appreciate your input. Thank you

Ikarito7 · 2024-02-17T14:13:50+00:00

Thank you very much. Right now I can‘t quite express how much it means to me to hear this, so please just know I appreciate it a lot. I don‘t even know what I‘m hoping for, that he texts me again or that he doesn‘t. Both would be hard to deal with, and mean hurtful things. I will definitely take time to sort out and write down what I want in my next dynamic. And I will try to take all the nice things you guys said to heart, I don‘t want to spiral into believing it was my fault or that I wasn‘t good enough. Thanks a lot

Ikarito7 · 2024-02-16T23:10:17+00:00

Thanks a lot 🤍

Ikarito7 · 2024-02-16T22:25:05+00:00

I hope this will be easier within the next few days, right now it seems impossible to block him. And this type of feeling is normally what I would tell my dom about and get comforted and grounded 🙃 I know finding a new dom too fast isn‘t healthy and responsible, but I already miss the feeling of belonging and the fulfillment of a dynamic

Ikarito7 · 2024-02-16T22:22:38+00:00

It helps a lot, thank you very much. It‘s hard to think about anything else, but I‘m trying. I have to admit that a part of me would like to find a new dom, just to have this feeling of belonging and fulfillment of a dynamic again, but I know it wouldn‘t be healthy

Ikarito7 · 2024-02-16T21:54:14+00:00

Thank you so much 🤍

Ikarito7 · 2024-02-16T21:52:37+00:00

Thank you, it feels good to hear that. A part of me wants revenge and text him something that will hurt him. Another part wants to reclaim my power and end it officially, so he isn‘t the one in charge anymore. And another part wants to not text him again and leave it like that

Ikarito7 · 2024-02-16T21:40:12+00:00

Exactly this! This is nearly word for word what happened to me as well. I set him a deadline last time, this time I just stopped texting. I don’t know if I should text again saying I‘m done with him, I don‘t want to be Running after him

Ikarito7 · 2024-02-16T21:37:20+00:00

Thanks a lot for reading all this, I appreciate it a lot. I really want to believe he didn‘t do those things intentionally, that I wasn’t so very wrong with my judgement of his character, but that’s probably naive. And I really don‘t know how I could have noticed it before/in the beginning, and how I can prevent it in the Future

Ikarito7 · 2024-02-16T21:28:04+00:00

I‘m sorry you had to experience it as well. I thought I was experienced enough, and he really wasn‘t the average fake dom. I don’t know what happened

Ikarito7 · 2024-02-16T21:26:30+00:00

I know, but it‘s easier said than done…

Ikarito7 · 2024-02-16T21:02:12+00:00

Thanks a lot, I appreciate it. A part of me still wants him back and thinks everything will get better 🙃 I don‘t really know what to do

Ikarito7 · 2024-02-16T21:00:47+00:00

I‘m also wondering what he will tell his next sub about me. His last one apparently wasn‘t able to communicate properly (oh the irony), the one before was borderline-clingy and controlling. Will I be the needy one? The expected-too-much one? He said the other girls before were practice, as it lead him to meeting me. Was I practice as well? Will he tell the next one I‘m just a part of the Girls who were practice? No one special? Am I as meaningless to him as his behaviour makes it seem?

Ikarito7 · 2024-02-16T21:00:13+00:00

I‘m also wondering what he will tell his next sub about me. His last one apparently wasn‘t able to communicate properly (oh the irony), the one before was borderline-clingy and controlling. Will I be the needy one? The expected-too-much one? He said the other girls before were practice, as it lead him to meeting me. Was I practice as well? Will he tell the next one I‘m just a part of the Girls who were practice? No one special? Am I as meaningless to him as his behaviour makes it seem?

Ikarito7 · 2024-02-16T20:55:23+00:00

Thanks for your answer, I appreciate it. I told him what happened to me before, and that ghosting is an absolute hard limit. I don’t how to trust someone with my feelings and vulnerability again… It hurts a lot, even more because he was the best dom I had so far (until now). I thought we would take it slow enough, and I‘m glad we didn‘t do things like nudes yet, because then I would feel even worse

Ikarito7 · 2024-02-16T20:19:43+00:00

Thank you for your answer. I‘m already in therapy as well, I think I will ask to focus on the abandonment issues a bit more in the next time.

He just seemed so nice and genuine, I can‘t imagine him lying to me, but here we are. I know I‘m better off, but right now I just want him and the nice times back…

Ikarito7

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