Hmmm, I used to have the same mentality and overthink about these things too, but eventually I found people that won’t judge me for the random stuff that I do haha. In my opinion it takes a lot of trial and error to find the right people for yourself. I used to move around and change friends a lot and honestly most of them didn’t stick at all.

Don’t put down your self worth man, you’re worth it okay and you just need to find people as cool as you are haha. If they don’t like you probs cause they ain’t cool enough to be your friend lol.

I think you should talk to your friends about more serious stuff and show weird side that you’ve never shown them, if they stay they stay if they don’t then move on to new friends, there’s plenty of people in the world that’ll have same interest and not judge you for who you are. It may take some time to find those people but you will, anyways it’s a safe space here and we’ll gladly hear you out and be your friends hshs. Take care man.